Chapter Eighty-Seven

LEO

"I-I am what?" I breath. Too many emotions rush through my veins at once, and I can barely think or see anything. Everything is blurring in and out of my focus. "R-Ruth can you show me the results?" I stutter out. 

"Yeah, can you show us the test result?" Erwin's voice is so close yet too far away from me. I don't know what face he is making right now. Is he happy? Is he sad? Is he angry? Is he still not believing or accepting my pregnancy? I don't know. I don't know. My head is a jungle. 

All I want to do, All I want to see and know is if I am really pregnant. If I am really getting to see my child's face. If I-If I am not losing him this time… I-I…

My whole body is trembling uncontrollably and the pulsing heart inside my chest is drumming in my ears. Erwin's rm tightens around me as he holds me onto a place and tries to calm me down.