32. Obsession.

Damon walked back into the bedroom and said, "I went over the edge again, fucking badly, and Mimi has no reason to believe me. I, darling, for three weeks, three fucking weeks of stabbing, beating, breaking bones, and then I was mean enough to tell Adam not to interfere when Mimi has to learn. What the fuck is in my head? I was supposed to have changed, grown up, and shown Mimi that everything was okay now. But no, I can't. I am a fucking beast, not husband, not protector at all. I still don't love her, not the way like they do and she knows it. She can smell the feelings."

Mariella sighed and said, " Come here, let's fuck if it would help."

Damon looked at his wife coldly and said, " That's the last thing I want to do right now. I've changed. I don't want to fuck all the time. Our honeymoon was supposed to be amazing. I was supposed to take you guys to Niagara Falls and every amazing place; instead, I abused Mimi. I was supposed to love her, let her feel my love. Now she doesn't trust me at all, and I become a fucking machine again. You'd think you'd have changed a bit too."

There had been a real danger in Damon's voice again. Damon walked away, and Mariella leaned back on the bed and sighed. She thought she had changed too, but Damon was quite right.

She wasn't even the least bit excited about the honeymoon; she had just been fucking. The wedding had been an experience for sure, but this makeup sex she had twisted their fucking had been too good to pass. Mariella remembered how wonderful trips she and Damon had had, and she would have loved to give Mimi such an experience too, but things always happen in this pack.

And, of course, Damon blames himself. He gave in to his own desires: stabbing and teaching. Mariella took a shower and went to find Damon. He was in the kitchen making dinner.

Mariela got all wrapped up and said, " Honey, forever is a long time, and Mimi will understand. She will trust you, believe me."

Damon turned around and sighed. He looked at his wife and said, " Darling, when it's Mimi. Mimi is not like you, not at all. You can understand and trust, Mimi. Well, I don't know. What I know is that during those seven years, some terrible things happened to that girl because she pulled herself down when I tried to teach her. She has been through some serious trauma, but I found nothing in her mind. She couldn't take it anymore; you should have smelled it in her blood. I had poisoned her with metals as bad as could be. Now she has a Hauptmann in there that has grown balls and big ones. She used again, some compounded form of her powers, but only barely, and she was in terrible shape. I just can't make myself love her. I do not know why. "

Damon continued to cook, and Mariella thought for a moment. This was the same old rat race again, and she sensed how close Damon was to putting everyone on leave, going to the Azores and sulking there for good measure, and just letting the cooldowns come on. But when it wouldn't solve anything.

Damon took his time thinking; he concentrated on cooking, letting his mind wander and not forcing anything out of his head in case the solution found itself.

Mariella said," Yes, you know the holiday won't help, but go see Mimi's situation. Help her, heal her, and show that you care. "

Damon sighed and said," When I have no right. I'm too ashamed again. Besides, she can smell feelings, do you understand? It does not mean anything, whatever I say if she smells the truth. "

Mariella wrapped her arms around him and said, " Come on, let's go together. "

Damon said, "I don't want to go in there; Adam will probably be wrapped up in Mimi in a minute, giving her close-up care; I don't want to see that. I am a jealous bastard, unable to love her, like I used to do. Not sure why?"

Mariella understood that had been very traumatic to Damon to see long time ago Charles wrapped around Mimi and still that image haunted him.

She thought to herself, "When will the past that haunts us stop being such as ass in our lives?" No one answered to her. They continued to make dinner.

Adam undid my bandages and re-bandaged my wounds. He was very efficient. Professional and gentle same time. He had too, now the doctor's aura on him, almost his own doctor's voice like Damon had.

He said, "I'm not stitching or doing anything yet until I get the results of the tests and the metals bound. Those might heal themselves."

He stood there. I watched him and saw the veins pulsing in his neck. I could hear his pulse, and I knew it was going to get wild. I had to restrain myself, but as the minutes passed, the need grew. I knew that soon my self-control would fail badly. I didn't want to tear Adam apart, so I had to get away and get myself together. This needed now Wulfe and my special bags. But first little first aid to keep me busy. Wulfe would come as soon as possible and those bags would help me. 

This was getting stronger by the minute. I did not want to scare Adam too much, but if I would attack, I might just as well leave the pack. I would be too dangerous.

I said, "Adam, listen to me and listen well. I've got a bloodlust, and it's terrible. You know what a wildcat can do in bed, then think about its bloodlust. About 30 times than normal, my worst bloodlust. Damon busted it open when he told me to drink as much as I could, and now, with this stabbing and the wedding, I'm pretty wild again. Now, what we'll do is I'll get out of here, and call Wulfe. Tell him I need two bags of my special blood and him, too. Next, you collect as much Salvatore blood as you can find in a shopping cart. I'll let you know where to deliver the cart, and then you get out of here. I might ask for more blood, then. Wulfe will find me once he is here. Do as he says, no matter how crazy it might sound. He has seen me in this state before and he was the one who pulled me through eventually. Do you understand? "

Adam looked at me searchingly for a moment and said," Fine, you're in a fix now. Your wounds are dressed, you are bleeding some, and you have metals, but this is now the priority. Go, let me know where I'm delivering the blood."

I got out of bed and teleported to one room. I felt a change coming on. I had developed my vampire form with long, straight silver hair, pitch-black eyes, pale skin, blood-red lips, a seductive voice, and enticing pheromones and black poisonous vampire claws. I had changed my form before the divorce too, over the years, but I was now much stronger, dangerous and when it came to me getting some blood, I was ruthless.

My vampire side, alpha vampire at its worst, was a veritable beast, and this needed some serious work for me to get this done. Damon had removed Wulfe's link from my mind and his influence as well. I cursed about that quite damn badly. That damn link would have helped keep me calm. Now it was so much worse.

Adam called Wulfe, who swore. He had also quite a diverse litany of words that he used. It was rare to hear a teen vampire wizard swear, and he sounded so much older. Wulfe said that he would be there in ten minutes and no one would approach Mimi and Adam would deliver those bloods where Mimi would want them, but he would be there soon. 

Usually, my clothes change into a black lace dress, and I let the change come out. I walked restlessly in the dim light and waited. I announced one bedroom to Adam, and then he said, "Wulfe is coming and the cart is in there."

I teleported there and took the trolley with me. Now it was time for self-control, and I should eat as slowly as possible. Let's see if I can do this. Not sure at all. I had to try, but damn bloodlust was burning in my vein, more or less.

Adam went into the kitchen to find something to eat and hoped Wulfe would help Mimi control herself. Damon and Mariella were making dinner in the kitchen, and Adam took a portion of himself and a drink.

He went to sit and think about how best to help Mimi. He had to just trust Wulfe on this. Mimi had truly scared the shit out of him when he had seen the look on her face. She had been almost feral. She had been a veritable beast and even he was a really powerful creature; he did not want to meet that side if Mimi. He sipped his coffee while he was eating meat stew.

Damon looked at him and said, " Aren't you holding on to Mimi?" 

Adam just grunted. He hoped Wulfe would get Mimi through this and they would have better times.

Mariella came over to him and said, " Come on, what's the matter?"

Mariella stroked Adam. She could sense that something had upset Adam badly, and he was unsure of something. Was Mimi giving him her sentences too?

Adam was silent for a moment and said, "I got Mimi's wounds dressed but haven't removed the metals yet. There was a slight complication. Or gotten looked at those test results."

Damon looked and said, " What complication?"

Adam was silent and then admitted, "Mimi's bloodlust. I hear she's a shapeshifting wildcat and that side of her is relentless when it needs blood, and if she had attacked me, Mimi said I would have been in medbay, so she's now in one room sucking Salvatore's blood and trying to get herself together. I called Wulfe. He has some special blood that will help her, but, Wulfe will be here any minute and I hope he can fix her. She scared shit out of me, that look that she gave to me..."

Damon nodded and said, " Fine, looks like the lady is going to have to draw vampire power and lots of it again. That she's shape-shifting is a complication because she's super strong, but since I'm not just a vampire, I can take her down. Where is she? Don't worry about Wulfe, we can work on Mimi together."

Adam said, "Wulfe said that no one should approach Mimi, no one. I don't know, but I'm taking a shopping cart full of blood bags to one bedroom."

Damon stood up and said, " Whatever the lady says, don't listen. It's going to take a while, but I'll help. Even if she doesn't want to at first."

Wulfe stepped into the kitchen and looked at Damon. He had a little canvas bag with him and he said, his voice was calm but there was power, "Maybe it is better, Salvatore, that I will deal with her myself. This is not normal vampire and vervain, holy water, weakening is not gonna work here. She needs a little help. Some super powerful blood and then, back to controlled feeding, not free feeding, not in any case unless it is guaranteed for eight months at least. Without any pauses. She is that strong."

Damon said, "Fine, I hear you, but what is that superblood that you are talking about?"

Wulfe was quiet and Damon realized Mimi had somehow compelled Wulfe not to talk about it. Oh, she was strong, and fine. It was time to face that little lady and see what this was all about.

Then Damon and Wulfe left.