i want to die again

Dark... everything dark was clearly not pleasant at all

 The last memories I have were that I went to buy some books for my university studies when it started to rain heavily, soaking me and my books, leaving me with a bad taste in my mouth "I should have seen the weather" I thought.

 Releasing an exhausted sigh, I continued running in a hurry with the books all wet, unable to see very well because of the rain, and when I crossed the street everything turned black.

 If I had to guess is I was hit by truck kun...damn

 What is this place?

 It was very cold and I couldn't feel anything. All I could think about was regretting what I couldn't do when I was alive and one of them was not get a girlfriend.

 Dying a virgin...what a cruel destiny God has given me

 If I could I would cry but I couldn't now because I didn't have eyes to cry or well I didn't feel them.

 'I wish it was like the animes and went to an isekai... but this was real life that couldn't happen, right?' I thought, sighing mentally, resigned, but suddenly something happened, I began to feel things again little by little.

 'Hey?! I am still alive?!' An overflowing joy filled me, I had not died a virgin and single yet! I still had hope!

 All my senses came back but a strong headache hit me I could feel like I was lying in a bed and I opened my eyes seeing blurry

 "Ugh...damn" complaining I would get out of bed putting a hand on my head sitting up I would feel like everything was spinning

 "Where I am?" When I could see a little better I noticed that I was in an unknown room. Could it be that someone picked me up from the street when I was run over? Just thinking about it caused a throbbing pain in my head.

 "Damn it.... from now on I will have a phobia of trucks" I would get out of bed treambling, I didn't like the situation at all. Every minute that passed, those headaches faded and my vision stopped being blurry.

 I would leave that room looking at the place, seeing photo frames of people I didn't know, I would look for the bathroom, When I found it I went in and turned on the light. I was exhausted for some reason as if I had taken 50 damn chemistry exams at the same time.

 I took a moment as all the pain and dizziness disappeared breathing a sigh of relief.

 "Well... without a doubt this was a very bad day" I let out another sigh and then laughed a little because it was all I could do now after that but my laughter stopped 

 "But...what..." I looked at my wet hands...they were different...they were younger and had pale white skin as if I had never known the sun in my life , when I raised my face to see how I was looking.

 "Aaaaaaaaaah!!!!!!" A loud scream escaped my mouth, surprising me so much that I stepped back scared of what I had just seen.

 'It can't be...' I looked in the mirror looking at my appearance... this wasn't me!

 Short black hair, eyes of the same color, he looked like a young man of about 15 years old, he was somewhat handsome but he looked like a dead man with dark circles under his eyes and pale skin.

 I caressed my cheeks, feeling my fingers while I looked at that face that wasn't mine...what the hell was happening?

 "Wait a minute..." a thought came to my mind... my dead eyes lit up.

 "I...am I in an isekai?" I couldn't help but get excited... a big smile would appear on my pale lips.

 It was something that would clearly fill any web novel lover with joy.

 Reincarnation in another world!!

 "Yes!" I would exclaim very happy about this, how could I not? It was my fantasy to be reincarnated in another world!

 I would leave the bathroom euphoric and begin to explore that home, my smile would not disappear, looking at everything with bright eyes.

 "Haha this is amazing!" After a few moments when I got to the living room I would lie down on the couch that was a little dirty but I didn't care right now I felt happier than ever.

 The place from what I saw at the moment needed a good cleaning but that didn't matter I would take care of it later

 I would stare at the ceiling for a moment and then see my hands clenching them into fists.

 It felt real...it wasn't a dream...

 "A new beginning... it seems that it is not my worst day after all" I comment in a low voice full of excitement and the things I could do, it must be a world full of magic and things like that, surely that is what all isekai are like.

 'Although with this body... I don't think I can do much' I thought in my head as I looked at my new thin and pale body looking like a malnourished vampire but I shook my head knowing that I don't have to be restless because it was better than being totally dead. and not come back to life.

 *ding*

'eh?' Suddenly I would hear a strange sound in my head, it was similar to a cell phone notification and a window would appear in front of me, surprising me.

 [Congratulations! You have been given the opportunity for a new beginning!]

 [You will have a system that will help you in this world and you can enjoy life without regrets!]

 When I saw the system words, my emotion reached a new level, I felt like my heart would burst from all the emotion that this was causing me.

 "This is the best day of my life" had died yes but so what? Now I could live better in this world so it was totally worth dying

 [Your system will be...]

 I could already imagine a super powerful system like in common novels that in seconds turned one into an all-powerful god.

 With that I would have my whole life resolved haha!

 My eyes were on the window eager to see what my system will be.

 [An idol system! Congratulations!]

 .....that?

 Wait this must be a joke right? An idol system?

 "Emm haha ​​okay what will my system really be?" Incredulous that this is my system, I asked, still maintaining that smile.

 [An idol system]

 ..... it just can't be

 I felt like my novel-reading heart was breaking because of that and the urge to cry appeared.

 An idol system? What the hell was that?!

 That doesn't sound like a powerful system at all!

 [You will be given the memories of your new body, you will feel a small headache, please hold on]

"What? Ugh!" At that moment I would feel a strong headache as if someone hit me with a hammer, I would put my hand on my forehead because of the pain and I would fall to the ground on my knees.

 Memories that were not mine would fill my mind... this person's name is haru Yamada , a lonely boy who only lived with his mother who died a year ago.

 It seems that it affected him so much that he locked himself in his house, not leaving for anything in the world.

 That explains why he's so pale and thin...heck he sure had a hard time.

 After those memories settled in my brain the pain disappeared making me take a deep breath and sigh.

 'This wasn't how I imagined an isekai...'

 Getting up from the ground I would look at the place without being animated anymore... this world was normal and ordinary without magic or anything according to the memories I obtained

 'I wanted... to meet an elf with big breasts...' that dream broke into a thousand pieces and I would sit on the couch again covering my face with my hands rubbing it feeling very disappointed... I wanted to die again

 Now I am... haru yamada