Chapter :- 3 {Accepting The Alliance On The Death Bed}
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सन्1690
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PRATAPGARH:-
The next morning, everyone was ready in white coloured dresses and was preparing for the havan and the puja. Only the closest of the family is allowed to sit in the havan. So only our family and their family were present.
I still can't meet my eyes with Yuvraj because of last night. When I still remember that moment, I always get goosebumps all over my body. I know he is broken just like everyone but he never let it come on his face, but last night I saw the pain in his eyes while I was hugging him. He even tried to hide it but he couldn't hide it from me.
Because somewhere I too knew that HE LOVES ME. BECAUSE I LOVE HIM, MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD.
Since childhood, I was only told that I was made for HIM and I only belong to him. But it didn't seem right to me because how can others choose, what I want right? But still, I know that whoever chooses him for me was right.
Tomorrow when I saw him in that white coloured simple kurta. He was looking so simple yet so attractive. He was like whatever he wears, he will look handsome no matter what!!!
I WAS LOOKING AT HIM LIKE HE WAS THE LAST PERSON ON THE EARTH!!! I FELT LIKE THERE WAS NO ONE AROUND ME AND I HAVE ALL THE FREEDOM TO STARE AT HIM ALL DAY.
He was too looking at me with the same gaze. Just the difference is that his gaze was so intense that I was feeling so self-conscious and so timid whereas, on the other hand, he was standing like he owns the whole world.
I was in my trance when I heard a loud noise. I looked around and saw an attendee was picking up the stuff which I think she had by chance thrown.
I was in the royal garden where the havan kund (fire pit) was set. Yuvraj's mother aka chhoti ma sa was with me only. I always call her that because she is like a mother to me. I was not happy to her like this because I always saw her smiling at me and always so much cheerful.
She told an attendee to call everyone for the puja.
"रहने दीजिए छोटी मां सा। अभी सब लोग कुछ न कुछ काम में व्यस्त हैं। मैं सब लोगो को बुला लेती हूं।"
(It's ok chhoti ma sa. Everyone is busy with some other work. I'll call them ok.)
I said and she kissed my forehead and smiled at me.
"पर छोटी मां सा युवराज को आपको ही बुलाना पड़ेगा। उनकी ताज पोषी से पहले उनकी पगड़ी आपको ही बांधनी है।"
(But chhoti ma sa only you have to call Yuvraj. Before his crowning ceremony you have to tie his turban.)
I said to her because that ritual is only done by a mother or wife. No one else can do that.
I looked at her and she looked a bit hesitant but said
"देखो नंदनी बेटा मैं एक बात कहूंगी पूरी बात सुनकर ही कुछ कहना। ठिक हैं ना?"
(Look Nandani child I will say something first listen ok and then react ok na child?)
She asked me and I nodded.
"देखो नंदनी, प्रताप की न एक ही इच्छा थी तो उसे मैं उसकी अखरी इच्छा के तौर पे पूरा करना चाहती हूं। उसकी इच्छा थी के रुद्राक्ष की ताज पोषी तुम यानी नंदनी करे।"
(Look, Nandani, Pratap has only one wish so I will take that wish as his last wish ok. His wish was that the crowning ceremony of rudrakash will be done by your hands.)
She said and I was shocked but still said
"पर छोटी मां सा ये रसम तो सिर्फ....."
(But chhoti ma sa this ritual is only done by....)
I was going to say but she interrupted me by saying
"हम जानते है नंदनी पर ये प्रताप की अखरी इच्छा थी। क्या तुम ये पूरी नहीं कर सकती?"
(I know Nandani but this was the last wish of Pratap. Won't you fulfil his last wish?)
She asked me and I was confused. Out of curiosity, I asked
"पर...पर हम कैसे उनकी अखरी इच्छा पूरी कर सकते है?"
(Bu...but how can I fulfil his last wish?)
"कर सकती हो बेटा। बस तुम्हें वो करना होगा जो भी हम कहेंगे। ठिक है ना?"
(You can child. You just have to do the things I will say, ok child?)
She asked me but still, I was confused because how can I do that ritual and what will she say that I have to do still I nodded and asked
"पर हमें करना क्या होगा मां सा?"
(But I have to do what?)
And what she said next was beyond my shock condition.
"रुद्राक्ष से शादी। आज ,अभी ,इसी समय। देखो बेटा कुछ भी बोलने से पहले मेरी बात सुनो। तुम्हे रुद्राक्ष से शादी करनी होगी तभी ये रसम पूरी हो पाएगी। तुम चिंता मत करो रुद्राक्ष को इस सब के बारे में पहले से ही मालुम है। रुद्राक्ष की चिंता तुम मत करो। बस तुम ये बताओ के तुम तयार हो न? प्रताप की इच्छा तो ये थी के वो ये सब अपनी आंखो से देखे पर उस सबसे पहले ही वो...। लेकिन अब अगर तुम उनकी ये इच्छा पूरी कर दो तो वो जहा भी होंगे, खुश होंगे। रुद्राक्ष को इस शादी और इस सब के बारे में तब से पता है जब से उसे अपने पिता के बारे में पता चला था। बेटा बस अब तुम बताओ की तुम्हें इस शादी से कोई आश्चर्य नहीं है।"
(MARRY RUDRAKASH. TODAY, NOW, THIS TIME. Look child, first listen to me ok. You have to marry Rudraksh only that way this ritual will be completed. You please tension not, Rudraksh already knew about this. You please don't take tension about Rudraksh. Just tell me you are ready for this right? Pratap's wish was that he would see this happening with his eyes but before that... But if now you will fulfil his wish then he will be happy, wherever he is right now. Rudrakash knew about all this marriage, he knew it since he got to know about his father. Nandani child now you tell me you don't have any problem with this marriage right?)
She said all this and I was in deep thinking. I mean how? How could I marry him right now? What will happen to my father's words? And the most important thing is do I want to do this right now? I mean I know I have to do this one day but do I have to do this right now? I... I never thought that I have to do this right now. And how does Rudraksh know about this? And moreover, if he knew then why didn't he tell me about this before?
I was thinking about all this when I saw ma sa looking at me with expectations in her eyes. I know she has lost her everything and this is because of me. I don't know how to confront her on this but I want her to share her pain with anyone if it's not me. I looked at her and she held my hands and again kissed my forehead and said
"हम जानते हैं कि आप सही फैसला लेंगी और सोच समझ के लेंगी। हमे आप पे विश्वास है।"
(I know that you will take the right decision and you will think correctly. I trust you.)
She said all this but I can only think of her last words. Those words meant something to every Rajput blood. Tears pricked in my eyes and I hugged her tightly.
We hugged for a minute and then I backed off. She again kissed my forehead and turned to go to Yuvraj's chamber.
She was going to leave when I said
"हम तयार हैं। हम युवराज से शादी करने के लिए तयार हैं।"
(I am ready. I am ready to marry Yuvraj.)
While saying those words I felt that time has stopped and nothing is working.
She turned around looking at me in shock but then she smiled and came and hugged me tightly. She was mumbling thank you to me and praying to God for my and Yuvraj's wellness and togetherness.
But my mind has only one thing that.....
THAT YUVRAJ HEARD MY CONFESSION. HE HEARD MY CONFESSION TO MARRY HIM.
He is standing right in front of me at a distance. Chhoti ma sa is hugging me so she has her back to him so she couldn't see him but I can... clearly. I don't know what but I can only see anger in his eyes. I don't know why it's anger but it is there. I mean he knew that we were going to get married today but why angry?
WHY?
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Hi, guys so this was the 3rd chapter of RUDRAKSH NANDANI.
How's it? Do tell me, please.
Words:-1365+
So first of all, YUVRAJ hann (teasing tone) you chalak bro, haan, chalak, very chalak. 🤣
Just kidding but...
Haan.🤣
Ok, so why Yuvraj aka Rudraksh is angry at Nandini?
To know
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