[Nigel Gawain] Ice, Sunlight, and Smile (2)

“My name is Gilbert...Gilbert Bedivere...”

During the first time we met, there was nothing more than just our self-introduction to each other.

Even though it was a long time ago, I will never forget about it.

Maybe it was because of his golden hair, which resembled gentle sunlight during late morning.

Or it could be his harmless smile on that day.

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I hate women.

It is one of the most ridiculous things for the Gawain family.

That is when the Gawain family wanted a beautiful child, and I fulfilled that wish by having a face similar to my mother. However, that also brought shame upon the family as well.

Since I was sexually harassed by one of the maids.

Actually, that word may sound too soft as I was pinned down on the floor. That maid was cleverer than I thought. She drugged me, making me unable to move. She kept saying she really loved me—including my hair, eyes, voice, demeanor, and scent…

Her desire disgusted me, making me shiver and want to vomit…