Goodbye

Chapter 34 (Vicky's POV)

It was time.

My things were packed and inside my rental car.

There was no one to stop me or question my decisions.

I also knew Knox won't be at the station today because it's his day off duty. So I will give my statement and I won't have to say goodbye to another person.

I knew Andrew suspected something but it looked like I convinced him with my answer.

At least I hope so.

If he came home earlier I would lose my determination to leave.

So the only thing left for me to do was write my letter to Andrew, explaining as much as I could without mentioning my pregnancy.

Better to get to it.

Dear Andrew.

I knew I promised a proper goodbye, but I just couldn't do it.

There were emotions involved before we met in person, but since the day I came to Scotland they only grew stronger.

I can not fool myself anymore.

I do love you and to my disappointment sadly I've overheard your talk with Marge in the kitchen before the attack.

So I know there's no chance of you loving me back in a way every woman deserves.

So I will give us both some time apart, that we need to get our friendship back on normal track.

I don't want to lose you. No scratch that I CAN'T lose you!

You are the most important person in my life so losing you is not an option.

Thatfor I will leave without saying goodbye because in a way, this is not goodbye. It's just until the next time :)

I hope you won't hold a grudge against me and that we will talk to each other soon.

I promise I won't contact you first.

I will wait till you are ready to forgive me and when you do give me a call.

I will be waiting patiently.

(You know I'm lying right? I'm the most impatient person in the world!)

Give Marge and Amy kisses and huggs from me and know I will miss you all badly.

With loads of love

Yours only

Vicky xoxo

When I finished writing, tears were running down my cheeks.

Writing that letter was probably the hardest thing I did in a long time.

I left the letter beside the door where I knew Andrew always droped his keys so it was a sure thing he would find it first thing when he walked inside his house.

I wanted to tell him I am pregnant with his baby, but I also wanted someone to celebrate it with me.

Not someone who would think I wanted to trap him into a relationship.

I wanted someone who would love me with all his heart, but Andrew couldn't be that person.

He was still too hurt from his ex's betrayal.

And I couldn't blame him.

Even if we managed to overcome everything else, there was still distance between us.

I had my life back in Slovenia, and Andrew had his life here in Scotland.

Both of us couldn't just uproot our lives and leave it all behind.

Especially Andrew. He had Amy here and his parents. He had Knox and he ran a successful mechanics shop.

It was a bit easier for me. Sure I had my job at the radio station, but it wasn't my dream job. I always wanted to be a writer or editor for someone else's books.

My parents were not in the picture anymore, and all the friendships I had stood on rocky grounds ever since I met my ex.

But it was too late to think about things like this.

It was time for me to leave before Andrew came back.

So I got all my remaining things and left his house. I locked the door and left it in Marge's mailbox on my way to the police station.

My statement was given without any hiccups and they've told me all the original paperwork would be sent to my address via mail and I will be notified about any progress that would be made on both cases.

Then I returned my rental car and went across the street to check in at the airport.

It's too late to go back now.

Beanie it's just you and me for some time from now on.

I looked down at my belly that was still flat.

But at that moment I promised myself I would do anything to protect my little beanie.

She was my world now.