Season Finale

I arrived In new York and it felt good to be back home but I was already missing everyone .My dad and family would be coming in a few weeks to help me prepare for my delivery which I was excited since I was a month away.For the past few days I had been preparing and rehearsing for the award show and I got my dress tailored which would be a nice champagne dress which would be umbrella like from under my boobs till the knees which hid my stomach and it looked like I was dressed in an umbrella,it was literally like an open umbrella .

I had brought my delivery bag ,I was planning to deliver in South Korea but then the real experts and my original doctors who had all my info and background were here in New York ,so I would be giving birth in New York.The day for the award show arrived and I prepared for the show from morning for the first time in months I finally posted a picture on my Instagram the post was of me in my pyjamas but I cropped it to hide the bump on the caption I had written , "Day by day you learn to let go of the loss but never forget the Love"

I arrived at the red carpet and the paparazzi took so many pictures . The show started and I was dressed in a black silk knee length dress that was not tight from the waist till the knees .It was flowy and had a slit along with the dress I had glass block short heels which looked so cute and nice but also comfortable .

I had my hair in a tight bun with a pony tail ,as I got on the stage I spotted the BTS members except for Jin and I was surprised as I didn't see them at the red carpet . Everyone was making some noise as they didn't expect to see me pregnant , "Hello Hello Seasons ,welcome to 2022 Seasons award ceremony ."

"So I know I know y'all surprised ,well let's just say I swallowed a really big water melon and I woke up like this ," I said and people chuckled.

We started the ceremony but as the award ceremony continued I felt some pains and contractions but I just held on thinking it was the normal pains .As Dua Lipa was doing a mini performance I went to the toilet as I felt like peeing ,after using the toilet the pains were still there but I had to finish the ceremony as I was still weeks away from giving birth .BTS won some awards and I really wanted to jump up and down but I couldn't I had to be professional and the pains didn't allow me .

I got onto the stage to close off the show , "Well I enjoyed being with y'all tonight but our show has to come to an end but before that why didn't yall tell me that being pregnant is so damn hard like seriously ,I can't even walk normally right now I am pretending to walk perfectly if it were up to me I would be walking like this ," I said as I walked like a duck people laughed . "It's not funny though ," I said looking serious and people continued laughing as I walked back to the mic like a duck I felt some liquid gushing down my legs which caused me to stop walking right then and there , "Oh oh I think we are in trouble ," I said as I looked down ,there was some noise and commotion and I saw Hoseok approach me with a frightened face , "Is it time?but it's just 8 months ?" he said .

"Yeah I know but it's not yet time ,the doctor did say something about premature water break I think ," I said .

"That means we need to go the hospital ,right?"

"Yes ."

As we were talking some staff members came to the stage and so did Yoongi and Namjoon , "Are you okay ?"

"Yes I am it's just pains and stuff but let me close off this then we will go to the hospital ,"I said .

"Uhm guys as you can see I think we might be having some problems but I am okay and for the closing show please welcome Remi and Selena Gomez ," I said and they helped me leave the stage and we met up with other members at the back of the building as we had to go to the Pulmonary Hypertension center as that's where my heart doctor and some specialists were .At first they didn't understand why we had to go there but I had told them I would explain later," We don't have a big car but some can follow in another car 3 can go with her ."

"Okay."

I was with Hoseok , Jimin and Yoongi as we drove away I felt like crying as I feared the implication of all this ,it was a huge risk , "They are a month early !" Jimin said.

"I know but it happens with twins ," I said trying to convince myself more than him.

"Breathe Anashe breathe and calm down it will all be okay ," Yoongi said .

"Yoongi I am not giving birth now my water just broke ," I said looking at him , "Ain't you scared ?" Hoseok asked .

"I am."

We got to the centre and I was immediately hospitalised , doctors connected me to many machines and kept monitoring me .Hours went by and finally the doctor came in to inform me about what was happening , since I was hospitalised I wasn't allowed to see anyone for too long as I was at risk of many things including infections . "Anashe we will have to induce labour into you as you are at a high risk and so are the babies ,we will induce labour and you will give birth using the vaginal method vaginal birth is usually associated with less blood loss, fewer infections, less thromboembolic risk, and less abrupt haemodynamic changes compared with a caesarean section ,"the doctor said.

"You mean I am giving birth now?"

"In a few hours yes ," she said .

"But I was supposed to check in a few days and be monitored until my birth in some weeks why so early ?"

"Your condition is literally hanging by a thread if we don't do it now ,you have a high chance of getting cardiac arrest and your babies dying during and before birth ."

"If this will save my babies then let's do it ,"I said .

They did everything they had to do and injected me with that thing of theirs ,I asked to have some familiar faces and they only allowed two people ,Hoseok and Namjoon joined me in the ward but they were dressed in those hospital plastics or clothes to avoid infections and stuff.

"You had a heart condition all this while and you didn't tell us ,why?"

"I didn't want you to think about it everytime ,I wanted us to be happy and I mean truly happy like nothing would go wrong ," I said ,I didn't tell them everything in detail.

"So what happens?"

"I am giving birth earlier than planned I guess, is someone fetching my delivery bag ?"

"Yes Jimin and Jungkook ," Namjoon answered .

A few hours later the doctor said I was dilated and I had to be because the pain I felt was about to kill me ,I was in extreme pain as I kept screaming and crying but even though I cried no tears left my eyes just sweat ,That's how painful it was crying without tears .

"Okay everyone let's get these babies into this world ," the doctor said .They were doctors and nurses who were monitoring me and the babies through the machine ,I was not given pain relief as nitrous oxide had to be avoided as pain-relief during vaginal birth because of its ability to b cause vasoconstriction of the pulmonary vasculature.

"Okay Anashe it's time to push as hard as you can okay ?"

I nodded as I was in serious pain , "Okay in 1..2..3 push !"

I started pushing as I held onto Hoseok's hand while Namjoon was by my other side caressing my head and encouraging me , "We are still good ,"One doctor said .

"The babies still look okay ."

"That was really good now let's go again I will count up to 10 as you push okay ?"

"I want my daddy!!"I said crying out loud .

"Anashe you can do this ," Namjoon said .

"You can do it ," Hoseok said too.

"Here we go 1 …2…3..4…5..6..7..8..9..10 great I can see the head good job Anashe one last push ."

"Aaaaahhh!" I screamed as I pushed with all my strength but as I was pushing I felt immense pain on my chest and I felt powerless and dizzy , "Code 9 ,heart rate is decreasing risk of cardiac arrest ," one doctor said .

"We need to act fast ."

I instinctively started to push again until I heard a baby's cry and it all went blank .

I was woken up by voices and chaos around me ,I heard machines beeping and I was so disoriented , "Anashe please wake up and push ,you have been waiting all this time for this don't let it all go to waste push Anashe push ,"I heard a voice say .I couldn't feel my body and I felt immense pain on my chest , "Anashe push!!"

I felt this power in me and I pushed so hard while screaming and when I heard a baby's cry I just collapsed again closing my eyes slowly until they were fully closed .This is it,isn't it