Senior Year (Two)

"What's up with you?" An Qinyan asked as she saw An Xiulan sitting on the dining table staring at the food blankly. 

"Mom, I don't know what I want to do in future, "An Xiulan said. 

Lu Xuan placed his chopsticks on his bowl and looked at her before saying, "Didn't you say you want to contest for Miss China this year?"

"Of course, I do, "An Xiulan replied. "It's a means to an end, not an end itself. What I mean is I want to be Miss China to make a difference with my voice and the platform it will provide to me. But it's not my career. The entertainment circle is glamorous and pretty but I don't want to be a part of it. I feel that it's not for me."

"Have you decided this?" Gu Shangyan asked her. 

"Yes, I don't want to be an actress or a model, "An Xiulan replied. "This is not the life I want."