Chapter 34 Leaked emotions.

When I called his name, he turned and when my eyes met with his, his eyes were red as if he had been crying for a long time.

"What is wrong?" I asked.

"Nothing," He replied as he stood up and began to walk toward me.

"Are you sure, earlier I saw your face? You looked sad. So please tell me what is wrong." I demanded but he didn't talk, he just gazed intently at me.

"You have always helped me when I needed help, so please let me help you. Tell me, I might be able to help_"

"Jessica, what does Gabriel mean to you?" he asked sullenly before I could complete my statement and I switched off. Recently, I was the one who was exacting a reply and he was the still one but the table turned as his eyes searched for an answer.

After taking like centuries to put my battered thoughts into place, I finally spoke...

"Gabriel is my friend, my very good friend," I said with my eyes never leaving his.

"And what of me? What do I mean to you?" He asked still retaining his cloudy tone and I didn't know why but my heartbeat accelerated as I heard him.

On the plane, he asked me something like this, he asked me how I would describe him, I knew what he meant then but I couldn't tell him what I didn't cognize. I couldn't give him a reply when I haven't even replied myself when I don't even know how to describe him and when I don't know what he means to me.

Was he my friend? A friend that is always on my mind, a friend that I can't get off my mind, a friend that I always want to see and a friend that I felt odd around!

I closed my eyes and I sighed as I mumbled the words "I don't know,"

When I opened my eyes I tried to apprehend his expression but before I could do so, the door sound interrupted.

I gazed at it casually and I saw Zia standing there.

"It's time for you to perform," She spoke when she saw me and a hint of shock or surprise was not found on her face.

"I will be there soon," I said and she left then my gaze went back to Julian.

"Whatever is troubling you please let it slide away, I will see you soon," I said and without even waiting for a response, I hurriedly left there.

'It's jealousy Jessica and it hurts'

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{In back stage}

"Where is Camella?" I kept asking but they all just kept hurrying me.

"Don't you guys get it, I can't go without her!" I tried to explain to them but it was a waste because before the twink of an eye, I was already on stage and the curtains to the backstage closed immediately after they brought me out.

I looked around and I saw the large congregation watching me, waiting patiently for what I was about to offer them but as time passed and as I did not utter a word they became impatient as their thrilling eyes became a confused and angered one.

I felt like tearing up right there, what was I meant to perform? What will I do? I and Camella were meant to perform a group song of which I cannot perform on my own. And again my heart was beating so loud that It was already making a beat, I was so damn scared! I knew I couldn't do it alone!

I removed my gaze from the large crowd and I kept it fixated to the ground. I was trying my best to do it. I didn't want to embarrass myself but even after all my trails I couldn't let out a single sound.

 After some time, I returned my gaze back to the crowd and then my eyes met with these warm and encouraging eyes telling me to go on, telling me that I could do it, giving me all the support I needed with just his eyes.

Then he gave me a smile different from the one I saw a while ago, he gave me a warm and encouraging smile and before I knew it, I tightened my grip on the microphone and sang the only song which suite this moment, a song which suite the warm and secured feeling that he brought.

A song named

"I've fallen for you,"

"What is the feeling, I just can't explain.

When you're near, I'm just not the same

I try to hide it

I try not to show it

it's crazy, how could it be?" I began to sing with my eyes never leaving his as all my memories with him flashed by, from the first time I met him at the garden, how I bumped into him and I couldn't take my eyes off him up to now.

And I felt so warm and happy just by thinking of it. I felt like building more memories with him and I felt like never letting what I was feeling go.

At that moment I already forgot that I was on stage, I forgot this was a performance, all that I could see was Julian and what I was singing then, wasn't to entertain anymore, it was meant for him.

I intensified my gaze at him as I said the last words.

"I finally know how it feels,

So this is love,"