You Are Weak

"Do you think I regret staying with you now, I regret to believing in you don't be stupid how can believe his shallow wor-"

My mother after slap I was startled and I looked up to my face, and I saw her crying like she was in more pain than I am. Then she grabbed both my shoulders and kneeled in front of me.

"But it is true I can't use simplest of spells I can't even use a luminous stone, don't worry I am not blaming you for it, you are also weak, so it's obvious that I am like this but since I am your son."

(a stone that glows when poured mana in it serves as a light source).

I started bluffing that I don't care, but the truth is, at that time I really blamed my mother but deep down I was finding an excuse for justifying that it was not my fault, so why did I deserve this, why even I was so faithful to laws of magic when I worked so hard for all these and the only thing she did was to push me to try harder, why?

And something snapped in me, I cried and started yelling at my mother.

"Why did you encourage me when you know it was hopeless?

Why you said that I am strong, I am not weak, mana doesn't matter, money doesn't matter..... they do, they do mother if only we had the money I could've sought the treatment or done something else if only I had mana I could've answered back to those who made fun of me, I didn't wish to be born this way, I never hurt someone or did something bad so why I deserve this and those who are scum have everything, those dialogues didn't matter in reality mother, so why? Why?"

The tears and snot covered my face I grabbed the skirt of my mother and I was screaming, I started blurting whatever came in my mind, no it was the bottled-up feeling that I have kept in me.

"Why? Nobody had conditions like me so only I was chosen to go through all this? It would've been better if I was de-"

"Aaris!" my mother yelled so loud in a voice I never heard.

"Don't say things like that, I know it's my fault, I am sorry if only I was strong enough to protect you at that time, I am sorry

I am sorry,

I am s-

I know you are angry I know you suffering, but please don't say things like that I never be disappointed in you I can't imagine living further after losing you too, so please don't hate me I promise I will protect you from now on so please Aaris please."

We both were crying like something is lost between us, she was hugging me tightly so tightly like she was thinking that if she loosens up her grip a bit I would leave alone, but I was thinking the same I was afraid that she would hate me for being weak and would leave me.

For wetting each other shoulders she put her forehead on mine,

"And Aaris, believe me, you are not weak, it's not like you never had mana instead when you were little you had the densest mana I have seen so far" my mother while looking down I was surprised is she lying to me? I thought but I know she will never do such a thing that will hurt me and then, "it is not a disease Aaris it's just... just..." she was trembling like she remembered something that should've been forgotten, so now it's my turn,

"it's ok mother whatever the reason was I became like this I know their things you can't tell me now, so I promise you that I will work hard, every day and become the strongest and protect you always, and we will live happily ever after then I promise to mother," I said while holding her hand I just wanted her to forgive me for those words I spouted without thinking why I only looked at my side I was not the only one in this hell she was with me there, always at least she accepted me, she even gave me the best she could find.

So it's good for now it isn't the end nobody knows what the future holds so let's cherish these moments and give her little ease I thought.

"Mother, I am hungry," I said when my tummy growled,

"oh, dear! Look at the time" she looked at the mirror clock of the school area that levitates just about a 3-story building height, so you can see the time anywhere in the town, which reflected the clock tower in the middle of the town it was already 4 o'clock.

"So what do you want to eat should we buy an ice cream or crêpe," she said,

"let us eat at home, your cooking is more delicious," I said.

And then we returned to our little mansion she made curry and rice, we ate together, and went to bed, I slept with my mother as in our cottage there were only 3 rooms, I snuggled up to her,

"Mother I am sorry for the things I said",

"don't worry I will never hate you, didn't I told you are the most precious to me in the whole world" she whispered.

And the night broke today she made me breakfast and gave some books and kissed me on the forehead,

"take care I'll be home soon she said and went to the mansion.

I finished my breakfast and then took the book and went outside to practice I can't give up, yet she was the only one I have and I am the only one she can rely on I have to get stronger no matter how, I will become stronger,

"OYE garbage! Are studying what waste do you think you will get mana with studying, I heard you went to school yesterday what happened they didn't take you in I thought they had some seat reserved for useless." Crius son of Husre said while smacking me he was a 10-year-old boy with blonde hair and blue eyes.

He took my book and threw it on the ground,

"look Ulios you are seeing the making of a legendary fool," he said to his cousin and son of Dustin Ulios he was 9 years old same age as me, he had the same blonde hair as crius but black eyes,

both of them started laughing at me,

"what are you reading?" asked winter younger sister of Ulios in a gentle voice she was 7 years old with black hair and black eyes and pale skin she justified nobility with her appearance,

"A book my mother wrote and gave me," I said afraid,

"What it is about? Oh! Let me guess how to seduce a geezer" said Ulios,

"my mother is not like that" I screamed at them, I knew what they were talking about but "I trust my mother, I believe in her" while glaring at them, I know I can't win, but it doesn't mean I can't fight I thought myself,

and then they glared at me and said while grabbing me by hair

"oye! How you dare raise your voice against us, let us teach you some etiquette of servants" said Crius in horrifying emotion,

and then they started beating me, both of them,

"stop it!" said winter,

I was saved by a lady,

or so I thought,

"if you want to teach him a lesson why not somewhere grandpa can't see us," said winter.

They took me to the forest nearby, and then they continued their daily practice of hitting me with the wooden sword, half spells inferior form particular spells that don't do any great damage, but they are used to show the effect of that spell,

[NUMB PRESSURE] Crius,

a spell where the user can pressurize or put force to any point without making physical contact.

Then Ulios pulled my shirt and chanted a spell while touching my chest with his finger,

[DEVIL'S HOLD]

a spell where you can freely move anything and throw them, choke them after making possession marking on them.

with these, they threw me, dragged me like a mop, and finally after beating the hell out of me Cries grabbed my throat and said "if you tell about this Secret class to anyone we will do even worse to your mother, and you know we can, she doesn't even have half of the mana I possess now" and threw me.

"Don't worry if something like this ever happened my father can take care of it, you understand. Right?" said Ulios

winter who was enjoying the show from the sides came to me said "so don't even think of bothering grandfather",

and Cries threw me on the ground.

And they returned to the mansion, and I was laying on the bruised and swelled.

I wanted to fight back but I was afraid that things would become difficult for my mother,

after gathering some strength to stand, I went back and picked up my book, and returned to the cottage.

When the night came my mother returned to our castle of muddy bricks.

"Ah! I am exhausted, Aaris you are still studying at least let me finish the other book before you end this-" she stopped when she looked at me, she came close to me, I was sitting on the bed,

then she touched my swollen eye gently and said "you fell again, right?" she said with a grieved voice.

"Yeah while I was-" my mother interrupted "practicing right."

She looked somewhat angry,

"that's enough I didn't serve them so that they can treat you like this!" she said like she was holding her rage, and then she stood up, "Aaris wait for me here, this will be the last time of them hurting you."

She stood up and marched toward the mansion,

I don't know what will happen now so I chased and screamed,

"mother please wait!"

but she didn't stop something bad going to happen if I don't stop her now I had this feeling.