Chapter 44

JAXSON

Shortly after Alessia moving into the cottage, I called for a pack meeting. Everyone showed up and I told them what happened as to why I banished Becca and Amy. I told them that I found my mate. I informed them who she was and what I had done and that I was going to do everything possible to win her back. After the gasps and whispers, everyone got quiet. I informed them of the potential threat of war. I set up training schedules for everyone, starting the next day everyone was in training to fight or defend themselves. The only ones exempted from this were the elderly and small children. If the time came, they would be taken to safety and hidden away.

These past three months have been hell. Alessia has been living in the cottage. I am happy that she is in my territory, but I just wish that she were with me. When she first moved there, I did not see her often. I would ask her if I could come over and she would refuse. The only time I was allowed was when I brought her groceries and other things she needed.

In the beginning, she would drive to work and pick up and drop off her files, but it exhausts her, so I started doing it for her. It took a while to get her to agree and I could have easily had someone else do it but if it meant spending time with her, I was all for it.

It was in her second month that you could see the difference in her. Her skin was pale, her eyes started to sink in with dark circles under them. The glow she always had was fading. I left several of my shirts for her to wear since most things were getting too tight.

Jessica was the one who usually did her hair. She would braid it or put it in a bun. I am happy that Alessia and Jessica are working things out. When Jessica told me that she was moving in so she could help more, I was relieved. I hated her there by herself. I felt so guilty that I did that to their relationship. I know I should not have made Jessica keep that from her, but I was not thinking that Alessia would find out. I regret it so much.

She talks to Emily and the guys more recently. They often check up on her during the day. I know she gets lonely being stuck in the house all the time, but she does not have the energy to leave. I have offered a few times to take her out, but she usually declines. I know she does not want others to see her like this.

I do know she has been in contact with Micah. He started texting her a week after they had their meeting in the park and apologized to her. I hate that they are talking to each other. I have kept quiet about it, but I am sure that she can see it on my face. She told me that Becca and Amy showed up on his territory asking for help. I figured that is where she would go but it still bothered me. Not that I wanted to still be with her, it is the lies and deceit that got to me. Micah and James both knew that she was in a relationship with me and they still had sex with her. I did not know Micah was her mate so as far as I was concerned, I did nothing wrong.

The thought of Becca living the life as a rouge was comical. She would not fare well in that environment. She lives off being around others. I am surprised that I took her as long as it did to show up there.

The only good thing about their friendship is that he has not attacked us. I have met several times with all the alphas in the area. I think I know who the 2 are that were willing to send warriors to assist him. I am not a hundred precent sure because no one is outright saying anything, but I am still working on it. Those 2 packs are a lot smaller and could never attack on their own. We had a meeting with all of us together, when I told them what Micah's plans were, they did not seem surprised, but they did pledge their support to me. Hopefully, that will get the others to pull back.

When and if Alessia does decide to be with me, I do not know how Micah will respond to that. He knows that she is here because she is pregnant, but I do not know if he is under the impression, that she will leave or not afterwards. She will not tell me what she plans to do.

Over the last few weeks, I have been spending more time with Alessia. She needs help and I am not letting anyone else do it. I am hoping that the more time I spend with her, the more the bond will pull her to want to be with me. Without the bond, I think she would have left me a long time ago.

Molly is here to checkup on Alessia. The last several visits, she has urged Alessia to allow me to mark her. Of course, she quickly says no. I cannot help but sit there and listen to it. If I argue with her, its only going to make her put more distance between us and I cannot afford to do that.

Her phone went off and before she picked it up, I could see Micah's name across the screen. I immediately tensed up. I feel like I am going to explode. We got into an argument and I let out a loud growl. I had to get out of here before I say something I am going to regret. Its only going to make things worse.

I stormed out of the house. I am pacing back and forth. Max is frustrated and angry at our mate. Very rarely does he get like this towards her but right now, he is upset. How can she talk to him but not me? I want to go back in there and fight for her, I want to grab her and hold her. Max and I have missed her so much. Yes, carrying and helping her are the only things that are keeping us sane but at this moment, its not enough. Fuck it.

I ran back into the house, pushing the bedroom door open. Alessia was laying in bed, propped up on pillows watching tv trying to eat a sandwich. She looked shocked to see me burst into her room. Afraid that if I said anything, I would mess it up. I rushed to her, sitting next to her on the side of the bed. Before she could tell me to leave or even say anything, I slammed my lips to hers. She was in shock. Both of my hands came up to the sides of her neck and I held her face while sticking my tongue in her already open mouth. At first, she did not move but then she kissed me back. She reached up and wrapped her arms around my neck. I leaned over her, kissing her aggressively. I missed this. Desperately needing air, I moved my lips down her jaw to her neck. She was a moaning mess. I sucked on her sweet spot to the point there was a hickey forming.

Not wanting to push it too much. I pulled away. I just looked into her eyes. She has not come into her senses yet, she is still stunned. I kissed her cheek.

"Goodnight, my Queen." I said.

She did not reply but she just watched me as I got up walk out.

"Jaxson wait." She said. I stopped at the door. Afraid to turn around because I did not know what she was going to say.

"Please stay. You were right. I should not have acted like that. I was wrong. I know how you feel about Micah and I should have been more respectful of that. I know you are trying." She said. I think I almost collapsed in shock. It never crossed my mind that she would say that.

"It's ok." I honestly did not know what to say. I was speechless.

"Will you stay and talk. Your right, we should have done this a long time ago. I was not ready, but I think we need to figure this out before our babies get here. I don't want them feeling any tension between us." she said while I sat at the bottom of the bed. I faced her. I do not know where to start so I am hoping that she will begin.

"I don't know if I'm ready to be with you physically, but I want to try being around you more. I want to get to know you. Just because you are my mate does not mean we should jump into things. I want to take this slow." She said.

"I would love that." I said with a big smile on my face.