Memory Of The Accident

Han Sofia POV,

The next day,

I woke up when I heard voices around me. I blinked a few times and found Yoongi sitting on the floor looking for something in the big box in front of him.

"Yeobo....", I said after getting up to a sitting position

"Huh? Are you awake? Sorry to disturb your sleep", he replied as he walked over to me

"Gwaenchana", I said smiling at him

"Are you still dizzy? How are you this morning?", he asked while kissing my forehead

"Better. By the way, what are you doing?", I asked looking at the cardboard box on the floor

"Oh, I'm looking for photos of my childhood. I remember I used to have an album containing our photos", he answered excitedly

"Jinjja?", I said while raising my eyebrows

"Yeah, I think I put it in this box", he said as he sat back down in front of the brown box earlier

I got out of bed and sat beside him. Then began to open one by one photo albums scattered on the floor.

"Kyeopta! Is this you??", I asked showing an album containing baby photos

"Ani. That's Joonki hyung. I'm much cuter and adorable", he replied with a grin

"Huh??", I said while making a disbelieving face. "Joonki oppa is cute too...", I answered while flipping through the baby photo in my hand

"Aish. Look at this one, it's me. See for yourself I'm much cuter ...", said Yoongi giving a medium-sized album in dark blue

I chuckled at his words then opened the photo album he gave me. Aigoooo, he's sooooo cute!

"Gosh, look at your cheeks! It's like mochi... I want to pinch and bite it haha", I said laughing, pointing at a photo of a chubby baby with white skin

"I told you!! I've been handsome and adorable since I was a baby", he said while showing his gummy smile

"Ye. But you don't have these cute cheeks anymore, too bad", I said shaking my head teasingly

"Sobi", he called

"Huh? Aigooo.... The cheeks are still there!", I said laughing

I turned my face and widened my eyes when I saw Yoongi puffing his cheeks while looking at me. I laughed and pinched his cheeks exasperatedly. He laughed too and brought his face closer to mine and then kissed my lips.

"Are you sure you don't want to have a baby like that, Sobi? I think our baby will be very cute too", he said softly while stroking my cheek

"We've talked about this before, yeobo. I don't think now is the time to have children. It takes a lot of preparation and responsibility to raise a child. I'm still too young, and ... and we also have to consider your career, right? ", I answered pressing my forehead on his

"Arasso, I understand Sobi", he replied as he put his lips on mine again, this time longer than the first kiss

Well, we did talk about this before. And at that time we both agreed to postpone having children. Do not know until when. I don't even know ... certainly not for now and in the next few years. I want to build my career first, and Yoongi is at the peak of his career right now.

Besides, I haven't told Yoongi my true feelings yet. I like him, ah no... I think I love him. But frankly we never discussed our feelings to each other except when Yoongi was drunk that time.

I was too shy to confess my feelings to him. And Yoongi is not the type to easily talk about how he feels.

"I'll help my mom for a bit. You take a rest ", Yoongi said after kissing me

"What do you want?", I asked pulling his hand when he was about to leave the room

"I'll help my mom cook something for breakfast", he replied smiling

"I'll help then...", I said getting up

"Ani, ani! You wait here, I don't want you to be tired", he said shaking his head

"But...", I said

"No buts … just wait", he cut me off

"Okay...", I said while pouting

Yoongi smiled at me before he walked out into the kitchen. I took a deep breath and looked back at Yoongi's baby photos. Then I saw one by one the photo albums that were in the box.

There are so many, there are photos of when Yoongi and Joonki were toddlers, photos of family picnics, during high school, to graduation photos. I can't stop smiling looking at the photos in my lap. Until finally only one small orange photo album was left in the cardboard.

I took it carefully and put it on my lap.

"This is it...", I muttered in surprise while covering my mouth with one of my hands

A photo of a pair of small children smiling at me. Little ginger-red haired girl wear pink and gray hanbok, while pale-skinned boy wear gray and black hanboks. Both of them looked cheerfully staring at the camera screen in front of them.

I bit my lower lip and slowly turned the pages. More photos of the two of us at Chuseok celebrations, then photos of Han-Min family dinner. Everyone in the photo was smiling broadly and waving their hands.

My head hurts, my chest tightens, pieces of memories of the Chuseok celebrations we spent together flashing through my mind.

"Sofia, Yoongi, Joonki, be careful with the fireworks!", shouted my mother reminding us

"Gwaenchana, it's completely safe", replied my father

I closed the photo album on my lap, taking a deep breath. Trying to slow down the beating of my heart that is getting faster and faster. My head hurts like I'm being stabbed by tens of needles

I sighed and slowly stood up and walked out of the room. I saw Yoongi and his mother having a serious conversation in the kitchen while preparing breakfast.

"Yeobo...", called me slowly

But when I was about to approach them in the kitchen, an object made of wood located in the corner of the living room caught my attention. I frowned and subconsciously walked over to that thing.

I know it, is it possible??, I thought. The pain in my head grew so intense that it made my vision blurry. When I touched it, I felt a pain in my chest. And I started to sob when I finally sat down in front of the wooden piano.

My heart ached at the same time happy, as if I had just met my old friend again. The soft tinkling tone sounded softly when I ran my fingers on the row of black and white keys.

"Oppa, what do you want right now?", a memory popped into my head

"I don't want anything", replied the pale boy in front of me

"Jinjja?", I asked again

"Umm actually I want to have a piano like your father's. But I think the price is very expensive. I will work harder when I grow up so I can buy my own piano", said that boy again with sparkling eyes

"Piano huh... arasso", I replied with a smile

Then another memory interrupted the previous memory.

"Oppa, this afternoon I will go to the city center. Please come to my house later, there is something I want to give you. My father will also come home early today", I said excitedly

"What do you want to give me ?", asked the pale boy in school uniform walking beside me

"Your birthday present", I replied happily

"Sobi, you don't need to, after all my birthday has passed", he said again

"I know, sorry... I have collected some pocket money so I can buy you a present", I said while lowering my face

"Sobi~ah you don't have to do it, jinjja", he said again

I'm out of breath. This is too much. I gripped the edge of the piano tightly as the pain in my head grew unbearable. And a memory popped into my head.

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Daegu, March 19, 2006,

"Oemma! I'm home!", I shouted when I entered the house

"Ye welcome! How was your day at school?", greeted my mother walking slowly from the kitchen

"Fun! Oemma, let's go now?!", I said after putting my bag on the living room table

"Huh? Now? Let's have lunch first, okay?", said my mother with a smile

"Okay", I replied pouting while walking to the dining table

Today is the day I've been waiting for. I'm going to buy a birthday present for Yoongi oppa. Indeed, his birthday has passed, but because my savings only collected yesterday, so I can only buy it today.

I collected my pocket money for one month to be able to buy a gift. And I already know what I'm going to give him so I'm both excited and anxious. Anxious for fear that the gift had already been sold.

After finishing lunch and changing clothes, I immediately approached my mother again and asked her to leave immediately.

"Aigooo ... you can't wait huh? All right, kajja!", said my mother while carrying her bag and car keys

During the trip to the city center I couldn't stop smiling, imagining Yoongi oppa's happy face when he saw my gift.

"Sofia~aah, I will meet my boss at 3 pm so your father will come and take you home. Arasso?", said my mother for the umpteenth time

"Ye, oemma. How will oemma come home later? Should I and appa wait for you to finish?", I asked

"Ani. I think I will finish very late in the afternoon. We have some works to discuss. I will go home by bus, don't worry...", my mother said smiling at me

"Arasso", I replied nodding slowly

After almost 20 minutes of driving, our car finally turned and entered a shopping center. Right now I can't hide my joy.

This afternoon seen quite a lot of visitors who came, the parking lot is currently quite full. We had to go around and park our car in a place a bit far from the mall entrance.

"Kajja", my mother said taking me out of the car

I immediately took my mother's hand and walked towards the mall with a big smile on my face. We went straight to the 2nd floor where there were shops selling accessories and stationery.

"That's the snow globe I want!", I said excitedly, pointing at a shop window

"Arasso, arasso ...", replied my mother chuckling looking at me

"Annyeong! Can I help you?", asked a female saleswoman when we entered the shop

"Annyeong! My daughter wants to buy a present for her best friend", replied my mother

"Arasso. Do you already know what present you want to give your best friend?", the young woman asked me kindly

"Yeah. I want to give him a snow globe", I replied excitedly

"Ah, ye. That's a nice present. We have many types of snow globes. Do you have a choice?", she asked as she led us closer to the window displaying various types of snowglobes

"That one!", I pointed

"Wow, daebak! What a beautiful choice you have," she said as she took out a snow globe with a small piano inside

"This is a musical snow globe. You just have to turn the key and ...", said the saleswoman showing how to turn on the music from the snow globe

Instantly the snow inside flew and the sound of the piano playing from the snow globe was heard, it was so beautiful.

"Wow," I said with sparkling eyes

"Beautiful isn't it? ...", said the woman when the music had stopped playing

"Ne. Oemma I want this", I said to my mother

"Ye. I think Yoongi will really like it. Alright, we bought this one", my mother said to the woman

"Arasso. Do you want to wrap it in a gift box too?", asked the young lady

"Yes", I answered

After we paid for the present, my mother then took me to an ice cream shop on the first floor.

"Your father is waiting for us there", she said as she took my hand and went down to the 1st floor on the escalator

"Jinjja?", I mumbled not hearing my mother's words clearly

My eyes were busy staring at the gift package in my hand.

"Sofia!", I turned my face towards the voice calling me

"Ah, appa!", I shouted, then I removed my hand from my mother's hand and ran to my father who was sitting in the ice cream shop.

"Appa! You've come! Look! I've bought a gift for Yoongi oppa. A musical snow globe. It's so beautiful. Do you want to see it?", I chattered excitedly

"Sofia, you can't open the gifts you're going to give to other people", my mother scolded when she sat down in front of my father

"Wae? I just wanted to show it", I said a little disappointed

"Gwaenchana. I believe it must be a beautiful gift," said my father, gently rubbing my head. "You want ice cream?", he asked again, winking at me

"Ne! I want two scoops. Is it okay?", I asked

"Sure. Kajja", asked my father

Then we spent our time together until finally my mother got a phone call from her boss.

"Darling, I have to go now. Kim Jaehan ssi is waiting for me at the coffee shop", said my mother standing up while handing her car keys to my father

"Yeah. Are you sure you don't want us to wait?", asked my father who also stood up

"Ani. Looks like it will take about 3 hours. I don't want you to wait too long. I'll take the bus later. Gwaencahana", my mother replied

"Okay then … Be careful, okay", my father said while kissing my mother's cheek

"Ye. Sofia, you're going home with appa, so be a good kid huh?!", my mom said kissing my cheeks

"Ne. Bye oemma," I replied, waving at her

Then after finishing my ice cream, my father and I decided to go home. We walked hand in hand to the car parked.

"Sofia, what do you want for dinner?", asked my father when we were in the car

"I want to eat omurice (omelette and rice)", I replied as I carefully placed the gift box beside me

"Arasso. Our dinner is omurice", my father said while fastening his seatbelt

"Ye!!", I answered while raising my hand happily

"Have you put your seat belt on?", asked my father turning his face to the passenger seat

Well, the regulations in Korea, children under the age of 12 are prohibited from sitting in the front seat, so all this time I always sat in the passenger seat, precisely behind the driver's side seat.

"Ne", I replied, giving my thumbs up to my father

"Okay", then my dad drove the car slowly

During the trip I told my father about Yoongi and the present I had just bought.

"The musical snow globe is so beautiful, dad. And it makes music when we turn the key," I said excitedly.

"Jinjja? Wow for sure Yoongi will be very happy with the gift", said my father smiling

"Do you want to hear it? Honestly, I don't know what song it is... it's a classic song for sure, I've heard you play this at home", I said while frowning

"Classic song? Beethoven? Mozart?", he asked curiously

"Ani. I know their songs", I answered

"Then who?", asked my father while still paying attention to the highway in front of him

"I don't know. I'll show it to you then", I said as I opened the gift box beside me

"Is it okay you open it?", asked my father while looking at me through the rearview mirror

"Gwaenchana, I just need to put it back in the box later", I reassured my father

I took the snow globe, put it on my lap and turned the key. Classical music sounded beautiful to my ears.

"Ah, this is Canon in D by Johann Pachelbel, a classical composer from Germany", said my father without hesitation

"Oh, Canon D...", I mumbled while swaying my body to the music

"Omo!", I screamed when one of my hands accidentally hit the snow globe so it fell to the floor of the car and rolled forward.

"Wae?", asked my father

"Appa! Ottoke? The snowglobe fell! Ottoke?", I screamed frantically

"I think it's rolling forward. How is it dad? I don't want the gift to be damaged", I said starting to whine

My father sighed, looked at the road in front of him and then unbuckled his seatbelt. Then stretched out his right hand to reach the snowglobe under the seat beside him.

My father kept reaching out the snow globe while occasionally taking his eyes off the road. And suddenly....

* hoooonk

"Appa!! There's a car!!!", I screamed when suddenly a car overtook us from the side

My father was surprised and swerved to the left.

"Sofia, hold on!!", shouted my father in a panic when he couldn't control the speed of the car

"Kyaaaaaaaa!!!", I screamed when the car we were riding hit a tree and rolled around until it hit a barrier

I don't know what happened, when I opened my eyes I felt my whole body hurt so bad, my head felt like it was going to explode any moment.

"Appa...", I mumbled trying to see more clearly the situation around me

I was hanging upside down in the car, tightly bound to the car seat. Shards of glass scattered around me. And I saw my hands and feet covered with bruises and blood.

"Appa! Appa!", I called in a weak voice

"Andwee! (No!) Appa!", I burst into tears when I saw my father lying on his side in the grass a few meters from our car.

His bloodied body remained motionless, his eyes closed and one hand still gripping the snowglobe whose glass had been shattered. My head hurts so bad and I'm having trouble breathing, I keep calling my dad but as time goes on my voice gets weaker. Until finally my vision blurred and darkness took over me.

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Now,

I gripped the edge of the piano in front of me. My head felt like it was going to explode and my chest tightened.

"Andwe! It's all my fault! Andwe! Appa ...", I whispered between my tears

I stood up very slowly, holding on to whatever was near me. I have to tell Yoongi, this is all my fault, I thought.

I walked slowly holding on to the wall, my ears were ringing, and I felt very nauseous.

* woof

Holly barked in the distance.

"Yeobo...", I mumbled between my sobs

I can hear Yoongi and his mother talking in the distance. I gritted my teeth and forced myself to keep walking.

Holly barked louder.

Oh my God, I can't take it anymore, I thought. I fumbled against the wall and accidentally bumped into something and it fell.

"What's that?", shouted Yoongi's mother

Holly barked even louder.

"Yeobo, it's all my fault. Everything happened because of me", I muttered incoherently

I'm out of breath, my head almost exploded, my vision was blurry and my ears kept ringing.

"Oh my God, is that blood?? Yoongi~aah hurry up!", shouted Yoongi's mother somewhere

I vaguely saw someone running towards me. I can't recognize him. I couldn't take it anymore, I finally gave in to this relentless pain and fell unconscious....

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* credit song in this chapter : Canon in D by Johann Pachelbel

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