Chapter 19

**Beatrice's POV **

We went to sleep with my head on his chest and his hand around my waist,

we've been together since Jaxon took us and we're very close .

It was around 4 a.m when he left.

I know because I wasn't asleep.

I didn't sleep last night because of my nightmares. Zach knew about them but didn't knew that I still get them. I don't want him to worry for me.

I took a cold shower and washed my hair. I let them loose to dry naturally.

I had two hrs before anyone is awake.

Two hrs before I had to wear my wig.

Again.

Two hours before I had to wear my contacts.

Again.

Two hours before I had to hide my true self.

Again.

As I had nothing to do I sat on the bed facing my painting.

It gave a sense of comfort. I started thinking about everything that happened in my life. Why it all happened to me. I was angry with my mother , father, brothers and even myself.

I don't know why but I was angry.