Chapter 26

Ash's POV

I wanted to stay. I wanted to wait for Jace and make sure he gets better. I wanted to be there for him. I still do. But what about my own life? What about my own happiness? I've tortured myself hoping for a love that used to beautiful— that used to be easy as breathing.

I know it wasn't supposed to be easy all the time. But if heartaches weighed heavier than the laughter than it was not worth the pain.

Not worth the torture.

Everything I saw reminded me of Jace. I didn't say goodbye exactly, it wasn't like I don't love him anymore.

I just... Know I couldn't keep living like this. Hoping for something else and sitting on my butt when the love of my life was off sorting through his crap.

I wanted to find my own way too.

When he was back, with his dreams intact, with a heart and brain that can love light heartedly, I will be ready for him. Matured in the same way. Then we can love each other without the angst and 'what if's.