Rehashing the past

Darrien 

"You hate me,'' she blurts out.

I don't hate her. I hate the person that I was with her. There is a difference but also no point in explaining things to her.

"I deserve this don't I?'' she asks calmly.

What exactly is she fishing for?

"You have to be here for a reason Amber unless I don't see the point of all this. You know I have a link now. I don't want to have to explain to him why you are lingering around me. I don't even want to talk to him about you because that life is one that I don't want to ever remember."

"You want to throw away our history like it never happened. That is not fair,'' she manages. I can't explain to her why I think that it is for the best.

Why she even wants to remember those times baffle me.