Having Lilac as a friend

Ji An's POV

It's really been a while since I get to talk to Lilac. It's probably because she had never texted me so I didn't want to text her as I thought that I would disturb her. Turns out I was wrong. She's still the same person I know even after going to Korea. She doesn't mind me disturbing her because she's worried about me. I really don't think that I deserved her care because I rarely thought about her. I thought that she wouldn't remember me.

The fact that she stills remember me really surprise me. I was lucky to meet a person like her. It's a blessing from God to me. She had always been by my side no matter how hard life had been for me and she never left me to deal with my problems on my own. She would always stand in front of me to stop the danger coming towards me. I have never met a person that is willing to stop the bullet for me. There's a few times that she had pulled me out from danger. Mostly it would be guy's problem because somehow or rather I always attract guy towards me.

And Lilac will be there to help me stop their advances because I'm a people pleaser. I find it very hard to say no. I just don't know how to. Lilac thought me step by step from saying no until to stop caring about how other's think of me. I see her as an elder sister because she taught me something that an elder sister is supposed to teach me. It's funny to see that she is always frustrated with me but she would never scold me. I know that I've been to clingy to her because she just makes me feel like just depending on her. But going into university without her is really hard but I tried my best to help myself and only depends solely on myself. No one can be trusted in university. Everyone in there is fake as f###. So many two face bitches around me. I really can't stand them.

How I hope that I could go back to high school so that I could stay with Lilac and enjoy my time together with her. Being around Lilac make her easy to read me. Maybe she had been there with me for a long time that's why she knows me better than anyone else. We have like telepathy power that we just look at each other and we know what it meant. Sometimes no one could understand how we think because the way we think it's the way we are. We are just trying to be as simple minded as possible because we don't want to complicate the way we think. But this world will never give you the chance to be simple minded. For the world you need to have brains to face the people around you. I wouldn't say that it's wrong because somehow or rather those words are true. In this cruel world not many people could stay simple minded.