Chapter3: Memories of the past 2.0

That morning after a long hours of sleep I found myself inside my hotel room. I slowly sat up in my bed and went to the shower room,as I stand and started walking I felt the pain in my head- Hangover indeed. I got to the pool side after a quick shower and got surprised that Clyde was already there. He handed me a glass of milk and some bread.

"Hang over?" He asked.

"Yeah, I think so." That was the first time I drank time I drank that much.

"Can I take you out for a date after this Team Building of ours?"

It took me a minute to process what he said, I thought that it may have been only because I am still drunk or what.

"Ahh Eh.. Yeah" I answered.

Weeks have passed since we started dating. It was then after the Sunday Mass when we officially became In a Relationship with each other. We lasted for 2 years, and spent our years strong and confident with each other. Everytime we would have the same rest day, I would arrange a dinner for us in his place. If not, we would be seeing each other and grab some time to spend with each other. We both live independently, his parents are in the Province managing their Poultry business while I am alone here in the country as my Aunt was working abroad.

And that day I never expected came, I got a message from him thru our chat system. I was then busy handling my current call, I placed the call on hold and opened his chat when I almost burst into tears upon reading his chat.

"let's stop this"

"I don't want you anymore"

I can't hardly find a single word to describe what I felt that time. I still have 10 minutes before I can take my break. I tried to compose myself and finish the call. I buzzed him in the middle of my call.

"Why?" I asked.

"Let's just stop this. I'm sick of it"

Just like that? I remain composed and just finished the call. I requested a Bio Break and rushed myself to the wash room and silently cried my heart out. I went back to my station afterwards, I don't want to show others that I'm weak. Just as when one of my wave mates noticed something in me.

"Jess? Are you ok? Did you cried?"

"Uhm No. I'm just really not feeling well today"

I logged back in, and manage to still take in calls keeping the tremendous pain in my heart. I kept asking myself, WHY? WHAT'S THE REASON? WHAT HAPPENED TO US? I can't help myself from thinking. My mind's a mess. I buzzed the RTA (Workforce) if I can get a VTO or go home early, good thing is that they granted my request. So I logged out right after I receive the approval.

I walked my way home, til I get to the park. I don't want to mess in a public transportation so I forced myself to walk despite of a heavy heart ache. There, I cried myself out while resting my face on my knee leaning my back in my favorite tree and just like that, the rain started to fall. I was like in a movie setting that time. I choose to stay under the tree and closed my eyes.

When I woke up I was already home, I dont know if I went on Teleportation or I walked myself home unconsciously. His words keeps echoing in my mind, it's making me crazy.

My phone rang ..

Yes I know that it didn't only rang once but I don't feel like checking my phone. I don't feel like talking to anyone right now. I'm sorry .. IM SORRY IF I MAY NOT BE THAT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU TO KEEP ME ..