disorder

All I want is order

Everything in its place

Nothing out of line

And because I want order

Thay say I have, a disorder

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I just want order

I want stability

Day by day I want things to stay the same

But things allways change

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Trying to think strate

But my minds in disarray

Can't Evan speak great

My words all jumbled

Meanings get twisted

Then I can't Even sleep,

my mind a weight

.

Tossing and turning

The words I never meant to let be said

In my mind burning

No filter, wish I had it

empty Inside

I wish I wasn't

Need to be filled, but it drains again

Crave stability

but everyone leaves again

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My brains in disarray

Happy, sad, mad

I feel it all in short spands

Scared, stressed, depressed

Emotions flitting from her to there

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Nothings stable, exsept my labels

Strange, dumb , unloved

Emotionaly I'm numb

See thees tears, the rage

It's an act, a cage

Hiding the real me

Cold and numb, looking for stability

For order but finding none

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Round and round my mind runs

Looking for answers

Like why am I numb

Why can't I be loved

How do I stop the draining

Why am I not enough

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Just some stability

That's all I seek

Somone who won't leave me

Nor threaten to

I need that kind of security

I may be numb

But inside I'm bleeding

Nothing aligned

My life undefined

By disorder