Mommy Mode

I was staring at the bank book in my hand. I know I've saved enough money for myself. In fact I've had several plans prepared.

I'll go overseas and settle there.

I want to travel a lot while I'm still young.

I'll prepare for my retirement so I can stop working anytime.

I'll buy my own house.

I'll search for an investment so I can have a passive income,

Start my own pastry shop.

I turned my gaze to the sleeping baby on my bed. Looks like I'll have to adjust or change my plans. I need to save more for his future. I know this sudden addition to my life is not an easy thing. Lately I've been diverting some of my money to his needs. Buy milk, diaper, vitamins, visit to the Pedia and so on. Although Reeve helps with some of the expenses voluntarily, I know I shouldn't allow myself to depend on him too much. It's my baby. The moment I took him in my care means that I'll be responsible for his future.

I think I need to open another bank account to save up for Kenji's schooling soon. Time flies fast. He's a baby now but soon he'll go to school and plan for his career in college. Achieve something more for his career. Get in love and marry. I'm thinking in advance now and I'm excited for him.

There are also times when I think of Christie. How could you leave someone you carried for 9 months in your womb and looked at it like a hindrance to your future? If only they were careful then this hadn't happened. But if that didn't happen then there's no Kenji in my life and that would be very sad.

I've been Kenji's mom for almost three months. I've had sleepless nights too. I had to juggle work and being a mom. If Reeve wasn't there I wouldn't be able to pull this off. He was really a big help. Our shifting made it easier for me not to worry about my baby's safety while I'm working.

I closed the bank book I was holding and placed it inside the drawer together with my important documents. I took my planner and jotted down some things that I need to do, things to prepare for Kenji's future. I need to do a lot of planning now. I want him to be a better man in the future. I want him to grow with love and respect for others. Is this how mothers feels toward their son? Like you can forget about yourself just for his sake? I guess it is. I'm still learning on how to become a good Mom I hope.

I laid beside Kenji where our head was leveled. "You know Kenji I knew being a mom wasn't easy but I'm still glad you came into my life and allowed me to experience how to be one." I snuggled at his side and embraced him. "I love you little one." Then I dozed off to sleep.

***

After knocking twice and still no answer, I decided to use my key and open the door. It looks quiet. Did they went out? I went to the fridge to check for some post it notes. None. I went to the table in the living room still no notes left behind for me. I got a little earlier I think. Hmmmm... Sachie is usually awake at this hour. If she's still sleeping she's gonna be late.

I tried knocking on her room and called her name. But still no answer. I was hesitating to turn the knob since it's her room and I don't want to intrude. I was grateful that she gave me a key but prying to her room might not be a good idea. But what if she's still sleeping? She will be panicky again.

I took a deep breath and held on to the knob hoping that it was locked. But to my surprise it wasn't and I slowly turned and opened the door slightly. There I saw that mother and child sleeping on the bed. Sachie left her planner open beside Kenji. I opened the door more and took a peek at her planner. My curiosity is bugging me.

Her cursive handwriting was so neat that I could read it clearly. It says about opening an account for Kenji. Check schedule for Pedia. Read more books. Find a day care center for Kenji. Get educational toys. Let Kenji play, paint and learn any instrument. Find a school. Get a house before Kenji turns five. Wow! It's like she's already planning in advance. She's on her 'Mommy Mode'. It's a long list so I didn't bother to read more.

I looked at my smart watch is says 6:15 in the morning. Sachie leaves at 7:00am. I concluded that she did a lot of planning last night. If I don't wake her up will she be mad? I hope not. I looked around her room. It's very minimalist. Her room is like a super space saver. You can even make a nursery room in here with a simple divider.

In the end, I didn't want her to know that I went inside her room. So I quietly stepped out and closed the door carefully not to make a sound. I went to the kitchen to prepare some breakfast. I was making sounds so hopefully she could hear it. I was frying the eggs when her door opened.

"Reeve? Sorry I woke up late." she was rubbing her eyes and her hair was tied in a messy bun.

"I used my key. I thought you went out or something? Anyway if you don't hurry up you'll be late." I said without looking at her.

"Shoot! Why didn't you wake me up?" she mumbled with annoyance written all over her face. She hurriedly went back to her room, grabbed her towel and headed for the bathroom.

I really should've woken her up. Silly me. I guess I'll just tell her later that I'll be out the whole weekend for our company's team building.

10-0506-2018