Accepting Myself

The darkness slowly distorted, while the other me appeared with his outstretched hand. My hand was outstretched towards him as well, but I knew what needed to be done now. As the other me was about to grab my arm, I grabbed his arm instead. 'No' I said.The other me's face changed. He asked, 'You still want to be stubborn? Don't you see? What else can you do, die? Perish, like the last loser? You need me, and you know that!'.

I held his arm tightly while replying, 'No, I was wrong. You are part of me, you are me. We were never two separate entities, we were always one... Now I understand. I tried to imprison myself, I tried to control myself. Blinded by the fear, unable to face who I really was'. Silence filled the area. The other me or rather my other feelings, I tried to push them away for far too long. I made myself a prisoner, a prisoner to my own feelings. 'Acceptance? You want to finally accept me?'. The other me asked. I nodded, 'We were always one, it was my fault for trying to push you away'. The other me smirked, '... Acceptance...So be it. Accept your rage, your hate and your vengeance. Show them who we really are!'.

The other me slowly merged with me, I felt pure hate and rage coursing through my veins, but those were my real feelings. Feelings I tried to seal and forget about. I was no longer scared, after all that's who I was in the first place. My eyes suddenly opened, and the world was painted in red. It no longer left odd or alienating to me, it felt natural.

The earth spikes impaling me, crumbled to pieces unable to resist my Aura. I felt the rage, I felt the hatred but I was calm. I inhaled some air loudly, then exhaled. "Let me show you, who I really am". I fought the pressure holding me down, and slowly extended my hand upwards. My Aura gathered, and manifested the Sword of Rage into existence. It wasn't any simple sword, it was at least ten times bigger than what I could manifest before. I grabbed the sword and using all of my strength, swung it down. "BOOOOM!", "SCREEECH!".

The Formation holding me in place flickered, while the pressure on my body lessened. "You are still alive? What are you exactly?... That thing, it must've possessed you!" The Lizard exclaimed. I lifted my giant Sword of Rage, and swung it back down again. "BOOOOM!", "CRACK!". The sword broke apart, while the ground shattered from my strike. The Formation broke apart as well, no longer affecting my body. Nothing was stopping me now.

I took a step forward, while the ground broke apart under my feet. More Formations appeared all around me, trying to imprison me again. I extended my hand, and willed my Aura to condense again. This time, I didn't create a sword, but a large claw like hand, similar to what my right hand looked like. I swiped my right arm, while the claw like Aura swiped through all the Formations appearing in front of me. "Crack!", "Crack!", "Crack!"... The Formations shattered one after the other, as my Aural Claw swiped through them.

"Don't think you can get away that easily monster!" the Lizard screamed, while more Formations appeared both on the ground and in the air. "Sword of Rage: Condensed Form". A sword appeared in my hand, resembling the Razor Swords I had. It was much more condensed compared to before, while wails and pure hatred seeped out of it. I took another step forward, and with a "Boom!" accelerated to speeds even those Formations had a hard time following.

I appeared next to the Formation and swung my sword, before disappearing and appearing next to another Formation. Sounds of breaking reverberated through the air, as all the Formations broke apart. "Is that all you got?". I taunted the Lizard. A loud "Hmph!" sounded in my ears, while another Formation appeared beneath me. I sidestepped but more Formations appeared on the ground, with earth spikes trying to impale me.

I jumped upwards, evading all those Formations. "You thought that you could get away?!" The voice of the Lizard sounded again. I smirked, "I wasn't even trying". I condensed another large Sword of Rage in my hand, and threw it at the ground below. "Swooosh!" the sword flew downward, while Formations appeared everywhere trying to stop it. Screeching reverberated throughout the area, as my sword clashed with the Formations. That wasn't enough to stop my sword thought. "BOOOM! SCREECH!". Some sort of large Formations below flickered, while the ground broke apart even more.

An angry voice of the Lizard sounded in my ears. "Where are you going to run away now?!". That was true, I was in mid air. In the past this might've been a problem, but not to the current me. A sword materialised itself under my feet, while I used it to jump even higher. More swords appeared, while I used them to elevate myself higher and higher. "I think you should worry about yourself!" I shouted, and began condensing the Bloodlust Aura in my hand. I willed every last part of my Aura to condense and create something that even that large Formation couldn't stand.

A spear full of rage, hatred and vengeance, condensed in my hand. The spear released screams, cries and crazed noises. The spear represented the embodiment of my rage. "Art of War: The Spear of Judgement" I said, while throwing the spear downwards. My spear descended, gaining speed with each passing second. I could see the Formations breaking, before my spear even arrived. When it did, it pierced right through the ground without any noises. Then, "BOOOOM!" the ground imploded, and rose to the air revealing a huge hole. A blast of air pushed everything aside to reveal a destroyed base of Grey Lizards.

The large Formation that used to protect them, gone. I used the Domineering Aura to create some Aura Daggers, and slowed down my descent. I landed just outside the large hole, while my Bloodlust Aura became feeble. I couldn't use it at all, as if all the rage stored inside me disappeared. When I looked down into the large hole, I saw Lizards struggling to remove rubble and fallen debris. All of them had injuries, but I didn't see anyone dead. "M...Monster... " one of the Lizards mumbled when he saw me. I jumped into the hole, landing in the centre. They backed away, unwilling to fight anymore. Fear evident in their eyes. "Not so vicious now, are we?" I asked with a smirk.