4 Who is my appa?

Daehyun knocked on namjoon's door at 2 am in the morning

"yes?"

Namjoon yelled out, his eyes focused on his art work.

"it's open."

Little daehyun stumbled in

"Daddy want me to come be with u" he mumbled tiredly and sat down on the floor with a little koya toy in his arms that namjoon once gave Yoongi years ago

"do u know where my appa is..."

The child blurred out suddenly

Namjoon's eyes did not leave the boy, following every of his moves with his eyes.

Koya... he remembered when Yoongi used to call him lazy and looked like a koala, he was the one finding the name of it.

"i don't know Daehyun. Your daddy should know."

He replied focusing once again on his drawing.

"ask him."

"daddy say ask u..."

The confused child mumbled

"Koya...do u no?"

Daehyun asked his favourite toy and only companion

Daehyun hugged koya tightly, a single tear fell from his thin cheek and tired eyes

"Hey hey hey."

Namjoon quickly reached for the boy and pulled him in his arms, not knowing why he was acting all reassuring with him.

"don't cry, it's okay~"

Daehyun fell asleep on namjoon's chest from the warmth he had never felt before.

Namjoon gently laid the boy down on his bed, taking his shoes off and covered him with the blanket.

"adorable."

He whispered, watching him sleep before leaving the room to join the kitchen.

Yoongi had sat up weakly after being woken up by namjoon being a amazing cook in the kitchen. Wearing only old gym shorts and ripped dirty tanktop

"Joon..." He mumbled with his raspy sicky voice

Namjoon walked in the room, handing a plate of homemade food for Yoongi without looking once at him.

"it's Namjoon not Joon."

Yoongi didn't look at the food

"Where is he...where is daehyun" he panicked and tries to get up. Tears raining down yoongi's sunken eyes

"he is sleeping in my room, chill."

Namjoon sighed. He placed the plate down and walked back in the kitchen, to eat his own plate.

Yoongi was shaking.

"no I can't lose him"

Running to namjoon's room to see for himself. Yg kissed his baby's forehead and sobbed beside daehyun on the floor for about a good one hour

He felt so hopeless in a world that promised so much but failed again and again. By his family and friends. Old and new visible cuts all over his body from self-hurm trying to relieve the stress, failing as a parent for his precious baby boy. He didn't know how to tell namjoon. He was abandoned in a reality that never gave him a chance to come for air.

It was just another lonely depressing night for yoongi, crying himself to sleep on the floor beside namjoon's bed where his son slept

~~~~~~~~THE NEXT MORNING~~~~~~~~

Namjoon woke up feeling the back of his head hurting. He groaned in pain and stretched, convinced that last night was just a dream. He walked in his bedroom and gasped out loud.

Yg was cruled up like a dog on the floor and the adorable little boy was sleeping ever so peacefully

Namjoon deep sighed looking down at Yoongi. He finally lifted him up and placed in the bed, covering his body with the blanket before throwing clothes for him on the bed and left the house for a day of work.

Daehyun woke up a few hours later, wondering around the huge empty house alone with koya in his arms and messy hair looking for namjoon.

He sat down on the rug by the tv that was still on and watched the moving pictures on the wall with fasanation and wonder. He found some paper and pencil so he started to draw what he saw

Yoongi woke up late afternoon still exhausted. He realised his son isn't by his side and panicked. Running around the whole house till he found daehyun. He hugged him tightly and joined him to watch tv

~~~~~~~~AFTER WORK~~~~~~~~

Namjoon thanked the cashier lady and grabbed his bags full of groceries. He came back in the house, music ringing loudly in his ears as he took his shoes off and looked at the two sitting on the couch but stayed silent, not looking once at Yoongi.

He was greeted by Daehyun's bright smile and adorable dimples who give him a bug warm hug. Yoongi hugged himself, he didn't know how to face his ex yet.

Namjoon strangely loved the hug gaven by the child. He gave him a bag full of clothes and sweets.

"it's for you, a gift for being such a cute boy and strong little one."

Daehyun gasped and took the bag of stuff and sat on the floor to see what it was.

Yoongi finally had the courage to stand up and passed daehyun's birth certificate to namjoon. Both their names were on the paper as his parents.

"Yoongi!"

Namjoon raised his voice a little, looking at the male before focusing his gaze down.

"what does that mean? Fucking reply!"