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Well this is completely unexpected.

I died. I thought to myself as I stared at up where there is nothing but, 'nothing. Why am I even surprised, I expected to one day die, but this, just what is this?

I am dead. Death, an important piece of humanity that has been there since the beginning of human history.

There is no heaven or hell, no reincarnation, no purgatory shenanigans, nor is my mind Blank like a completely white canvas slate. Nor is there anything, nothing. I have been here for how long an hour, one second, a trillion years, I feel a pull closer and closer like a warm motherly embrace, though there is no warmth nor cold. Just an empty void. There is no darkness, light, nor any colors. Nothing, not just 'nothing', but the come before existence, creation, death, this is 'True Nothingness'.

I should not even exist, no I do not exist, but I do as well. Am I above it, when I'm a mere human.

What defines the concept of "void" and "nothing anyhow, space, emptiness, state of not being, null, nothing, invalid, not existing, non existent. Null is like saying 'nope' and 'invalid' is like crossing your arms shaped In the third last alphabet style. Even so that can apply to both. Right? Nothingness is the state of being nothing, creation, destruction, petty concepts, something that is validity, nonexistent, lack of being; nonexistence, not being?

Void, huh, I did expect to die but this is faster than anticipated. Being born during the modern age of humanity, where there was an illusion of peace, and a technologically advanced society which was not fun, but neither was it bad. It was simply dull.

I still remembered before coming to America, when I had to work like crazy, help take care of my family since I was a kid. Hearing the sounds of a chicken's cry every morning. Heralding the ducks, taking care of the goats, razing plants, dancing while it was raining, my mom slapped me for that, since she was worried for my health, and told me not to do that. As a kid I though that there existed reincarnation, heaven, purgatory, hell, nothing, waking up, etc.

This situation is merely one of the infinite variety of situations I thought of. The Bible was not written by god, it was written by man.

After all death is just an natural cycle in a ever spinning wheel called 'life'. I accepted that as a kid. Even if I died and the solar system exploded, I was still there. Even if reality itself erases me, I am technically still alive. Technically all beings are immortal and eternal, even when their legacy does not last forever.

Thats a bit complicated, but I know the answer.

One day though there might be no one to remember earth. Humanity might go extinct. Not from shortage of food, over population, not enough resources or things along those lines. They most likely will kill themselves. A bunch of zombie. Mere humans bathing in the light of pitiful ignorance. Truly that's deplorable and utterly pathetic.

There were multiple theory's on how the universe began. God, a singularity, or simply nothing.

The universe is ever expanding but that does not mean it will not die. It might combust and new ones might form or will form.

Before there was the universe there was nothing and in that nothingness existed chaos, Greek.

Reflecting back now, I was pretty reckless, and idiotic. As a child I was curious. The same curiosity that almost killed me. Slowly I raised myself with my two feet's. I walked in the vast plane emptiness, the pull led me. Following where this 'feeling' is guiding me towards as my body and mind is in synch.

Like they say, curiosity killed the cat, though I am not a cat. Right?

In life there are different phases moreover stages, nonetheless you can die at any moment, life, it's fragile yet delicate. But that's what makes life vibrant and beautiful. I was always grateful towards life, but now I am more so.

"This void of emptiness , it feels like I exist yet I do not. There is a vacuum that's moving, but also not. There is no sound waves, resonance, meta constructs, physical or maternal things none of them exist here. Am I outside time itself, in another field of dimension or am I going through moksha or going to heaven or hell, cause I see no shiny gate filled with golden luster".

"This place still 'exist' yet it does not feel like it does. There is nothing here, yet here I exist, this void is nothing as it cannot be anything, regardless of it was made or came to be.

Can this be a simple illusion or my subconscious. Peace, time, death, and a lots of other concepts can be called illusions.

'The human mind makes up a lot of things, the concept of things derived from which...'

"But I do not want stay like this." "I don't want to be caged." "I am a being who has always valued freedom." Henceforth I shall be in denial of that."

I am reluctant to part with life. I hate this emptiness as it reflects my own soul. Which all of humanity's, the emptiness that is within us all which maternal things barely helps temporarily.

To deny nonexistent itself huh? Just how strong would you have to be? Do you need to be a super power above entire dimensional conversion cetra? Do need to be God?

Heh! Maybe the only thing you need is your imagination. For that do I need a head, maybe, but can go in a trash bin.

I lived my life the way I wanted and it's not time to back out. The only thing that can beat me is myself.

I am the writer of my own story and I do not want to die yet, there are things I must do, this void is me, there does not exist true 'limit' as it is but a mere pitiful concept.

"I am a free existent yet not, I feel fear, but not towards death. I am just like this 'emptiness', this 'void', I am merely seeing myself in my own self created mirror. I have a name, but don't, I have goals, purposes which I know yet don't. I am not just creation itself, nature itself is but a mere part of the greater one, the universe, it has many names, it is ever expanding." I continued to walk slowly step by step.

"I have a neither a name nor identify. I am 「　」, I am the embodiment of nothing, and everything , yet am both infinite and eternal, for I truly exist, hence I shall be in "denial" of the concept of 'emptiness', and create my own heaven." I shall make what comes to mind into reality from a measly 'illusion' to the "truth" henceforth to "reality".

The void suddenly stopped. The same time, my body froze. The pull went into me.

It came to me. "Creation itself"! 「***~|^

「　」 ??????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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「　」 """@;()::****

The 'Origin' where all comes from. The absolution of the heart. The soul of creation, the metamorphosis, beyond, one, two, three, four and more, chaos more, infinitely and above and above even more.

"Some one once said that numbers contains the secrets of creation itself". That person

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「　」 """@;()::***n

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Who was that.

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...*Thud*

...My heartbeats increased!

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The void shook.

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Something wizzed!

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I saw a color?

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Hm

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My mouth gaped.

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A slumbering eye.

「　」 """@;()::****

"Ah I see, so that's how it is"

"To Deny Nothingness" "To Deny Creation" "The Denial of Creation""To Be in Denial of Reality"

Deny Cleanse The Chose Chosen Mind Free

"All" 'Not' Happiness Beginning Cruthú Ruin Decay Deny Reach 'Deny' 'Emptiness' Consumption Deny Annihilation Void Deny Death Time Deny Eternity Deny Void Infinite Cosmos 'Will' Equality One Deny y Life Not Denial Path Love Hope Fear Fracture, Other Rebuild Heal Break Other Neither Conclude Null Cosmos Rules Laws Restrictions God Oblivion Totality Concepts Emotions History Life End Beginning Infinite Danger Finite Walk Path Disease Love Flame Energy Entropy God King Ruler Self-Govern 'Absolute' Control 'Salvation' Inhumanity Bad Good Luck Charm Oneself Damnation Help Not Yes Yes Denial, Humanity, Good Samaritan Heart Cleanse All One Be In Denial."

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The "Absolute".

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The "Beyond".

And as I wondered, I saw 'it'.

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I should have been scared, yet I was not.

The eye of the abyss gazed at 'me', slowly opening its closed eyes. With its mere presence, it shook reality. No! All things existing that 'will' asunder.

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The void shuddered, quaked, blinked, reality bended., time bended, space bended went unmoved and slowly a white angelic light, rained down, a gold, blue, yellow, red green, all kinds of varieties ranging from the brightest to the darkest, all of which shined upon me like a kaleidoscope , matter came into existence, my body became a radiance of beautiful light which seeped into my purified me, my body became a pillar of beacon encompassing the , my eyes closed as I accepted the void as I touched the 「　」and did something that would be called impossible, I reached "beyond" and called for it, as it's "Awakened Eyes" gazed at my form.

'Beautiful yet monstrosities', nay, words cannot describe this being, not creature, not human.

As I to stared. I remember 「　」 this being, A-, my body felt full of energy, but as the radiant 「　」 light covered 「　」 my form all I could whisper was,"A-".

My consciousness went black.