92 Yes, I will.

Zeng looked away. Even now with this close proximity, he didn't dare meet those eyes which once contained nothing except love for him. Now they harboured a sea of emotions that crashed down Zeng's wall of defence, rendering him exposed and he felt vulnerable.

"Look at me in the eyes, you coward." Yul jerked him closer. Zeng shuddered upon meeting Yul's gaze. He could see how desperate his raging eyes were. Even through the raw anger, Zeng could see how hurt Yul was.

'What have I done?'

He never intended for this to happen. He had expected things to get better for both of them. They both were supposed to be in a better place, with a better person if possible. But none of that happened. Yul was in so much pain and he alone was responsible for it. The burden was crushing him slowly and painfully. He deserved all the hate but now that he got it, this was too painful to bear it. How must Yul have felt all these months?