20 And Let's Play Fair

Samantha Point Of View:

What I did to Rachael was something you should expect but not expecting it to happen, if you know what I mean. The problems surrounding us isn't confusing as it seems, you just need to think outside of the box.

Hannah is my ex-girlfriend who cheated on me for 3 months, she dumped our 2 years of relationship for a short dick football player. I'm over Hannah, my feelings for her is gone. We are done, but...I like the way she holds me in her arms. I like our relationship back then when we used to be in each other arms, hear each other voices, and look into each other eyes. I want that once again, but trusting Hannah is like trusting a rock.

Sarah is someone who cares for me a lot, she has been there for me when I needed her the most. She's someone who I trust, but lately, she has been pushing me to Rachael. Rachael is annoying, but she's free.

Oh gosh, the way she giggles, the way she chuckles, the way she dances, and the way she smiles is like watching an angel being free. Her eyes sparkle when she's happy, her voice of laughter is a piece of music in my ears. Rachael is free.

I wish I could be like her, I wish could laugh like her, I wish I could dance like her, but mostly, I wish I am free like her.

Everyone that Rachael knows are all hidden in a cage of secrets, just like me. I've got secrets of my own, so does Hannah, so does Sarah, so does everyone. Sometimes secrets are worth to be told and sometimes secrets are worth to be hidden forever. Secrets aren't seldom.

Is my secret worth sharing?

I look at my palm before letting out a sigh, the football game is about to start and being the cheerleader captain. I need to get everyone ready to go.

I got up from the bench and walk to my group, "Is everyone here?"

"Hannah isn't here yet," said the brunette girl, who dated Austin for a while until they broke up.

No hard feelings between them, they would still chat with each other.

"Hannah is probably late," I say. I know where she is, she's with Rachael, lately, she has been clingy to Rachael, and Rachael's expression isn't supporting this at all. However, she never said anything about it.

We started stretching for a bit and Hannah showed up in between our warm-up.

"Let's get this started," Hannah says, flashing us her famous smile. Then she looks through the crowd and spotted Rachael, she blows a kiss to her.

Rachael shakes her head and looks at me, but I turned away from her.

I better not catch feelings.

"Let's show what we've got!" I exclaim, pumping my fist in the air happily.

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"We succeeded," I say tiredly, sweating flowing down my forehead. "We won."

The football players have gathered up in the middle of the field, laughing in laughter and throwing each other high fives. We've won, all of the cheerleaders have scattered to find someone leaving Hannah and me alone.

"Samantha," Hannah whispers her hand brushes against mine which I pull away."I want to make a proper apology to you."

I look into her hazel eyes, she looks into my blue eyes.

"I want to clear things up, what we had is something amazing," She says gently, a smile forms on her lips. "However, what I did is truly disgusting, and I understand if you won't forgive me. I wasn't the best girlfriend, but that's on me. I should've treated you better, I should've been there like you want me to, and I should've been a better person. My cheating reputation has ruined my friendship with others. I'm sorry. I want to start with you tonight because I hurt you. I'm so sorry, and I understand a single sorry doesn't mend any pain."

My heart breaks listening to her apology. My shoulder sages in the defeat of her apology. I've never thought it would come to this, how could she apologize? Why is she apologizing? What made her apologize? I could feel my heart soften for her, but I don't want to, she could be lying. She could be doing this to get me back, and to hurt me more.

I look into her eyes and all I see, is sadness, regret, and broken. Why is she sad? She was the one who did this, she was the one who started this.

"You're lying," I manage to choke out, my hands clenched into a fist. "You're lying."

Hannah looks at me, tears streaming down her face, eyes puffed in redness and she said softly, "You don't have to believe me now, Samantha. However, I've seen what I have done to others. I've hurt others, I've damaged my reputation and I've lost those people who used to be close. Until I met Rachael, she views me as someone who's better than who I actually am. She's willing to see me as a good person, unlike others."

She sniffs, "Samantha, I'm sorry for what I've done. For the last time, I beg you for the very last time, trust me one last time. I am apologizing for hurting you and being a bad person. You deserve someone better than me, I get it that it's too much, but I'm sorry."

My heart cripples at the sound of Hannah apologizing sounding broken, but can I trust her one last time?

Rachael has changed her or made her realized that she has something wrong.

Rachael...

"H-Hannah," I said nervously, bitterness filled my mouth. "Why?"

Hannah took my face into her palm, I didn't flinch this time.

"What we had is something we can't bring back and it's because of me. I understand if you still hate me, but what we had is a memory now. I happy to hold it within me," Hannah says, softly rubbing my face with her thumbs. "I just want us to move on because I broke what we had, it's time to move on Samantha. It's time to go on with our separate ways, I'm sorry that I took too long and made you suffer. I don't even remember who I used to be, but I'm willing to change for the better. It's time to move on Samantha Baltimore, it's time to find someone who you could trust."

It's time to move on Samantha Baltimore, it's time to find someone who you could trust.

Those words echos in my mind, as I let out my cries. My tears flow down my face as I sob continuously, my chest tightens to a point where I start to gasp for air as tears keep on falling. After all these days, after all these years, Hannah was the one who I trusted from the beginning and to the end. I yearn for her touch, I yearn for her love when I know it's not worth it. Hannah holds me against her chest I sob on her chest, she's someone who I dare to cry in front of. What we had is something amazing, but what she has done has destroyed me. Hearing the words from someone who broke me, makes me feel like I could finally let go of something.

"Sshhh," Hannah hushed me, rubbing circles on my back. "I'm sorry, it's okay to cry."

I cling on her cheer leading uniform as I continue sobbing in her chest, what we had is something I could never forget.