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“Good crowd tonight,” I say to a sweat-soaked Alex Sherman—or Tank, as everyone calls him—when he gets into the passenger seat of my Honda Civic and slams the door.

“Yeah.”

Tank begins to drum his fingertips on the dash. He huffs out a breath, eyes facing forward. This is typical Tank behavior when he’s distracted and has something on his mind but isn’t ready to share. Alas, since his and the band’s return from New York City three days ago I’ve seen a lot of distraction and distance from my lover. Something went down while they were there, but Tank hasn’t let on what. This naturally has set off my insecurities and I’ve spent the past couple days dreaming up ever more elaborate scenarios, most of which end with Tank leaving me for someone else or…

I force my mind back to the present and tell Tank to buckle himself in.

Tank pulls the seatbelt over his wet Vikings band T-shirt that clings so invitingly to his wide, ripped chest. I turn away, not wanting to cause us to have an accident before I even get us out of the parking lot. And if the clingy T-shirt isn’t crash-causing enough, the fact he’s pulled his hair back into a pony tail so the back of his neck can dry just might be. I can already smell the muskiness of my lover coming off him in pheromone-laced waves. It’s all I can do not to put the car back in park, leap over the console and lick every square inch of my man’s salty, fur-coated flesh.

Yes, amazingly, Alex "Tank" Sherman—talented vocalist of the recently discovered nu metal band The Vikings—is my man. I shake my head. Even after three years of being a couple, I still can’t get my head around the fact Tank is mine. Unwelcome, the negative thoughts return and a voice tells me Tank might not be mine for much longer. I push them away, but know they’ll be back soon, no doubt with reinforcements.

The radio plays quietly in the background as I drive us out of town. After each concert, Tank likes to listen to something quiet and peaceful. He says it helps him chill and re-center. On stage he’s every inch the bad-ass motherfucker of alternative rock, but the real Tank, the one he only lets me see, is kind and gentle and loving and…

Tank shifts in his seat then wipes his nose on the back of his hand.

I give him a Kleenex. He takes it, nods and blows his nose. Silence, save for the softly playing radio, continues.

“You so nailed ‘Rescue’,” I say when the silence becomes uncomfortable.

“Yeah.”

Out of the corner of my eye I see him pull the hem of his T-shirt away from his pants, no doubt to allow his stomach to dry. I’m lucky to always get a seat in the front row at each concert, so I know Tank always works his ass off to give the best performance he can for his fans. I smile because I’m the one who gets to go home with him. Or at least that’s been the case so far.

I force my mind away from the negative thoughts and back to the discussion—if you can call it that—of “Rescue.” “Best I’ve heard you sing it in ages.”

Concentrating on the road I feel more than see Tank’s penetrating, denim-blue eyes zero in on me.

“It’s our song.”

I nod, putting a hand on Tank’s leather-clad knee. “Rescue” is about us, how we met.

* * * *

I’d been in a relationship with my previous boyfriend for a year. It hadn’t been going anywhere for about nine months of that time but I couldn’t seem to pull myself free from the constant circle of Jerry’s abuse and pleas for forgiveness. The one thing I had stood firm on was not to agree to Jerry’s demands we move in together. Jerry was a possessive bastard who believed every man wanted in my pants and I wanted in theirs. It didn’t matter how many times I’d told him I wasn’t interested in anyone else. Jerry always believed what he wanted to believe.

Jerry and I went to an out-of-town biker bar to celebrate our first anniversary. It had been Jerry’s idea. He’d heard the beer was cheap. I’d much rather have gone to a wine bar or a nice restaurant, but anything to keep the peace.

We entered the bar and were immediately hit by a wall of sound: guitars, drums, and synthesizer. A quick glance over to the far corner of the room showed a nu metal band was performing. Much to everyone’s surprise, buttoned-up me liked metal. Admittedly, I preferred the hair bands of the eighties, but the newer alternative scene was okay, too. There was just something about grinding beats, guitar riffs, and angrily delivered lyrics that got me going. Just then, the huge vocalist stepped out from behind the turntables. His leather pants were so tight I was amazed he could still sing. And how deeply he sang.

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