1 A usual day....

Today as usual my day began with waking up at 5 and getting ready for my job. It sometimes becomes bore some but I have to bear it till I don't get a better job in government sector.

"It is very important to have job security and in our country, it is only provided by a government job. It doesn't matter whether it is a grade 4 job or grade 1" - as quoted by my father. But I never given it a serious thought and hence never resonated with my father too. But Ma knows me. She is the one you understand that more than job security, what i actually wants is peace of mind. So sense of understanding is always there with her.

"Oh! It's 7 am. I need to rush. Gotta catch a metro otherwise I'll be late".

"Wait ! Have your breakfast and take your lunch".

" No mummy. I'm already late. I'll have some in office. Bye. Luv U!".

So my, Yashi's, race begins and this seems to be a race on an infinitely long track. It is so difficult to cope in this competitive world and with loads of expectations, I sometime feels like drowning. I have been working for past 4 years and tried almost every government exam till date. But my luck never shines. Either I miss out in interview or merit. It has somewhat affected my self-esteem and the confidence which I used to carry in school and college.

As a student, I have been always a leader and guide to others but now the charm is fading (as I feel). I have become more lazy and careless about my looks (though I never cared about them before too). My sociability was always been poor and now the situation is deteriorating as the friends with whom I'm in constant touch are less than the fingers I have in my hands.

But for the past few days I'm feeling excited and thrilled as it's a wedding season for me and my family. My older uncle's daughter, my elder cousin, Sia is getting married. After so many years an occasion like this has come and since the wedding is at our ancestral village, so I'm more excited (" I love village scenery and staying there"). The groom is an army officer and is so dashing. Oh my God! She is actually very lucky. And this is proved by the fact that everyone agreed for her love marriage with so much ease, and she is also getting a trip to New Zealand from her in – laws' side (they are millionaires....oooohhhhh!). Her entire in – law family is in defence, starting from her father-in-law to her brother – in law and her mother-in-law is a retired foreign officer and current governor of capital. But she is also not lagging behind them. She is a professor in The Capital University and can be a Dean in few years (she was a prodigy in our family).

"Ah! I wish I could have such a life ("I'm jealous")".