What is Love?
'It sucks when you know need to let go but you can't because you're still waiting for the impossible to happen'
Chapter 05 - What is Love?
Kou's POINT OF VIEW
"Alright, can you explain we are in a relationship crap?" Shinjiro asked staring at me.
I know he is going to ask it but I can't still comprehend what I just did.
"Pretend to be my lover until Miyano leaves and I will tell you how to finish the game" I said without even thinking.
That was the worst kind of persuasion I can think of.
It looks like I'm bribing a kid
What if he thinks I'm thinking of him as a kid?
"You're asking for a deal?" Shinjiro said looking like he is thinking 'what the hell are you saying'
There's a high possibility that he won't accept it but I hope he will...
"Do you accept it?" I asked maintaining my confidence...
Why I'm still prideful even at times like this?
"Do you promise?" He asked is he going to do it
"Yeah" I said, I know I looked like desperate.
"Alright I will do it" Shinjiro said.
Now that he accepted it I can't believe it.
What the hell is in the mind of this guy?
He is really a KID, that is a shock!
We are walking at the side walk together.
I forced him to make me walk him into his house. I can't just let this injured guy walk alone.
He is stubborn but I manage to win the argument.
As we walk I remember the face he is making earlier at school.
His face is so serious. Is he that mad of Miyano for pushing him?
No that's not it. He is being bullied but he didn't react like that.
Haha a funny thought came in my mind.
"Shinjiro I hope I'm wrong but you're actually angry to Miyano cause she broke your phone" I said thinking that of course not but it still came in my mind as a possibility.
"That's right" He answered without hesitation
Oy.
"That's a weird reason" I said trying to laugh but I can't.
He became that scary because Miyano just broke his phone.
That was dangerous.
"But what I said is true... I hate those kind of people" Shinjiro said
"Can I ask you something?" Shinjiro speak
"What is it?" I responded
"Why me not Hana?" Shinjiro asked
"Obviously because I can't picture myself dating her." I replied and it just hit me what I said
He looked surprised by my answer
What am I saying? It is like I'm saying I only see my self dating you?
Gah!
Shinjiro is not speaking and the awkward silence is torturing me.
This is really the worst.
What is with me!
I followed Shinjiro and after a few turn he stopped walking in front of big house.
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"Is this your house?" I ask pointing to the house. Crap I can't speak normally
"Yes" He said, Shinjiro looks like embarassed too.
"You know this place is big" I said trying to change the mood
Awkward. So awkward.
"Yes it is, Um do you want to meet my brother?" He asked offering me to come in.
He is offering me to come in but he is not meeting my eye.
"Um, Maybe no" I said, I don't want to go in that place alone with you... your brother will suspect something! I'm sure of it.
Somehow I can picture his overprotective brother.
Wait, why I thought of that kind of thing again.
We are both guys and the normal thing to think first when your younger brother bring a friend home is he is your brother's friend!
What am I doing?
"Alright, thanks Asahina-kun" he said and wave a goodbye.
After a few seconds I heard the door shut.
I can't get him out of my mind.
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The next day as I enter the room I found Miyano.
The others are confused to see an outsider inside the room.
"Why you are here again Miyano?" I asked and go straight in my place.
Miyano is in our classroom.
All of our classmates are staring to her.
"Isn't she cute?"
"She looks like a doll"
"Is she a foreigner?"
"I don't believe you! You're lying... There is no such possibilities for you to like that guy!" Miyano said shouting out loud
"That guy?" Hinata asked curiously.
We will be busted if this continues
Of course my classmates know nothing about our "plan"
"You know he is more than, what do you expect..." I said and I remembered what happened yesterday while we are walking together.
I blushed instantly.
"Then prove it to me!" Miyano said
"Prove what?" I asked
What does she wanted me to do now?
"Your LOVE to him" Miyano said
"And how?" I asked
"This is ridiculous" Shinjiro muttered
"Just bear with it" I whisper
Actually Shinjiro is here all this time, he choose to ignore my idiot stalker.
Then Miyano suddenly said
"KISS HIM!"
"I know you can't kiss him because you are just pretending. There is no way you can kiss a guy" Miyano said
"What?" I said with shocked looked
Is he crazy? There is no way I will do that nor him.
Kissing Shinjiro...
Wait don't imagine it!
"If you can't do that, I will stay here and transfer this school" Miyano said
She is really the worst
That is the worst thing that she can do.
Will I do it?
The thought of me not being disgusted with a kiss with Shinjiro is surprise but there is no way Shinjiro will gladly give me a kiss.
"Shinjiro right? Give Kou a kiss" Miyano said staring to Shinjiro
"This is insane" I said
"I don't want too" Shinjiro said and stood up.
It's the End
"So you already admit?" Miyano said with a smile.
"Why will I do it for just the sake of your wish...? Your love for someone can't be measured by such ridiculous things... You can't judge my love because I can't kiss someone. You know this is ridiculous, I can't stand playing with you" Shinjiro said and leave the room.
No word came out of Miyano's mouth.
Actually it seems like all people in the classroom are shocked
"Shinjiro, wait!" I said regaining my consciousness
But Miyano hold my hand.
"Kou... Do you love him?" Miyano asked
Will I say I do?
"I love you so much Ayato..." Miyano said and she is likely to cry any moment.
Her love is not for me.
It is not worth for the likes of me.
"I love her, I don't know how but he is making me happy. I don't care even he is a guy. Being with him feels right unlike other people." I said and smile Miyano
"That's it I'm done for ... "Miyano said with a sad look on her face
"Go and follow your love..." She added
I lied to her when I say that I love her... but it is not a lie that he makes me happy.
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I close the door and let out a sigh.
The class became so noisy.
They are probably talking about me and Shinjiro being gay?
I created a bigger problem than what I already have.
No, stop thinking about that now. First I need to find where is Shinjiro.
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So now where can I find him?
After an hour of wondering around I end up in the school garden
"Shinjiro Mizuki!" I said and he turn around.
I saw him staring at the flowers in the school garden.
Does he likes flowers?
I walked near him.
"Why?" Shinjiro asked staring at me.
"Do you like flowers?" I asked curiously
"Yes, don't you think they are beautiful" Shinjiro have a soft smile in his face as he described the flowers beautiful.
We go near a shade to talk and I explained her that Miyano decided to give up.
"You are amazing, you actually handle the situation really good" I said with a smirk
"I overdo it" Shinjiro whisper then he looked at me with an expressionless face.
"Tell me, why does Miyano likes you so much?" Shinjiro suddenly ask. Why did he asked that kind of question?
"No reason really" I said and turn around.
"Liar" Shinjiro immediately shut my answer down.
He is sharp, Damn it.
"Fine, I save her from a car accident four years ago" I said he looked at me for a couple of minutes
"You save her?" After a few moments of silence he said those words
"After that she thinks that I saved her because I like her" I said
Shinjiro looked quite sad after hearing the story.
"So it is not love after all..." Shinjiro whispered.
Huh? What is he saying?
"What are you saying?" I asked
"Nothing" He answered
I really heard it clearly...
He said that what Miyano is feeling to me is not love...
Shinjiro didn't ask anything anymore.
"Miyano will leave early, I will add something in your payment" I said
I need to really express my gratitude to him.
"Really? That's nice of you" Shinjiro said with an emotionless face
Then I question come out in my mind...
"Say Shinjiro, if you really love the someone will you kiss him because someone ask you to prove it?" I ask to Shinjiro
I wonder...
"I don't know... I never loved someone before..." Shinjiro said with a smile.
I got the feeling that he is lonely...
"That is the same for me..." I said and he stare at me.
His eyes are like connected to mine always.
He amazingly knows what I am thinking and how to handle problems.
"We are going to be late for the next class, we need to get going" I said
"Um... alright" He said
What can I do to him so I can return his kindness back?
"Ah, we have a problem" I remembered
"The class think we are dating" I remembered a huge problem
"Don't worry... I bet Hana and others are already working on it" Shinjiro said
"Really?"
"Yes, they are intelligent and if Hana explained it they will believe her." Shinjiro said and somehow it makes me feel relieve
No one in the class will misunderstand Shinjiro.
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Me and Shinjiro decided to meet at a certain Ice Cream Bar in the shopping mall this weekend.
"You need to push the stone to the right to open a secret dungeon" I said sitting next to Shinjiro while eating an ice cream.
I treat him to an Ice Cream Bar and also I help him to finish the game.
Why an Ice Cream? I heard from Hanazawa that Shinjiro likes sweet so I bring her on the newly opened Ice Cream Bar in the shopping mall near our school.
"Asahina-kun, Do you think It is fine?" Shinjiro asked showing his game characters equipment and stats.
He is too close.
I can smell his hair.
"Yeah it is..." I answer, I think I'm blushing.
Damn it, Male hormones is such a pain
I can't believe I'm reacting to a guy near me right now. Did I turn gay?
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I take a bite at my Vanilla flavored Ice Cream when someone hugged me at my back.
I almost got chocked
"Busy flirting Kou?" A man's voice said, that voice seems familiar to me...
I turn around...
"Oh, it is you..." I said and I saw my old classmate
He is Kanzaki Natsume.
He is not only my classmate but also my rival back in middle school
"Your new girlfriend?" Natsume asked with a smile in his face.
"I'm not his girlfriend" Shinjiro said while still playing on his phone.
"A guy?" Natsume looked at Shinjiro closely
Did he just mistake Shinjiro to a girl?
"He is Shinjiro Mizuki from my class"
Natsume is staring to Shinjiro so seriously.
What is he thinking?
"I like you, Can you go out with me?" Natsume said and he go near Shinjiro and smile.
"What?!!" I said shocked
"Oy, are you out of your mind he is a guy you know!" I said
Well not that I mind if he is a guy or not.
What is with him?
"Kou I'm a bi" Natsume said
He is a by so he go for both boys and girls?
"Kou you said he is not your can I take it as he is also not you boyfriend right so I can go out with him?" Natsume said and smiled
Shinjiro paused his game and look and take a look at Natsume.
"Do I know you?" Shinjiro asked to Natsume.
What's with him, he seems to be interested to Natsume?
"No, but I do know you" Natsume replied
Shinjiro go back playing when Natsume grab his hands and kiss it.
"What are you doing?" I asked to Natsume
"I'm introducing myself properly" He said seductively
Why is that Shinjiro not removing his hands from him?
"Hey why you seem to like it?" I asked quite annoyed
"I don't like it" Shinjiro said with his usual poker face.
"But she didn't hate it" Natsume said with a smirk.
I'm annoyed.
"Do you know each other?" I asked
"No" They both said in unison.
Annoying. This situation is really annoying.
(Chapter End)
Author's Note: Tell me your comments and I'm sorry for grammatical errors.