8 Chapter 8: preparation for regionals

Turns out our duet had won the most votes out of everyone's and we were the winners! Omg I was going to be singing up front in Regionals! What a dream this would be! I only had another thing I now had to think of. I was going to be singing with Blaine and it was just going to be the both of us on stage together. Oh what a perfect opportunity to test out what we could become and how far we could go together. I had to fight to keep the spark alive between the both of us because there was no war on earth I was going to let go from making a real thing happen between us.

"So love me like you do, love me like you do"🎵🎵🎶🎶🎵🎵🎵🎵🎵🎵🎵🎶

We were now practicing in the auditorium the song love me like you do by Ellie Goulding so we could perform this song at regionals in which this would be the song we would be singing together. I just could not believe that of all the songs the one we would have to perform was the most romantic song ever. This is a song of two people deeply in love. I could not stop thinking about how awkward and scary this would be for me to perform this song. It would be so scary for me to really open myself up fully and vulnerably to him in the song about my feelings of love which is exactly the emotion that is supposed to be conveyed when performing this song. The scary thing was that I was not going to be pretending anything when I perform this song everything the song called for me to perform and express was everything I felt in true life. Everything I would have to act out is how I truly feel and I'm just so scared I will show to be translucent enough that he will see right through me like a clear bag seeing all my feelings about him inside of me.

So far our practices have been going good but I feel myself holding back a little. I feel like I'm hiding myself a little now because I'm too embarrassed after the last time that we performed here and I was just too nervous to truly showcase everything about my feelings for him after the last time I lost my self control and kissed him. I really need to learn to open myself up in this performance if we are going to win Regionals and that was so important to me but I just don't know if I could be able to let Blaine in enough so that he knows everything I think about him which he will if I perform myself openly and honestly in this performance.

I could tell he was a little nervous too. He wasn't as talkative as usual and kept saying as few words as possible stumbling over them. I couldn't help thinking that because I didn't know how to truly open myself up and express all I felt towards him during the competition and it could cause me from losing my chance of love. Oh how will I ever figure out how to get this right?