1 It’s hard

It's hard pretending.

What am i good at? Saying I'm fine when I'm not.

It hurts seeing people who said they were gonna be with you through thick and thin walk out of your life like if nothing ever happened.

Please tell me I'm not alone in this? Everyday I feel like I really don't belong here.

I'm confused on what I should do because every time I think about suicide pictures of the people who cared for me once show up in my head and I suddenly loose all the hopes of leaving this world for good, instead I get mad at myself for wanting to do that to the people who care about me.

I try, I really do try to think more on the positive side but with nowadays society it's nearly impossible.

It's hard.