1 When I saw her!!!
Bangalore mujhko Accha lagne laga tha, magar kya karte Jaana to tha hi,
Main yaha ek IT company me intern kar raha tha,all was going great, a well platform set career, but mere exams Aa rahe the, so ab Jaana to tha hi.
I'm currently in 3rd year of my engineering.
I took flight from Bangalore to Kolkata,
I was really very excited back to see my college life.
Indigo 6E was scheduled at 5am morning.
I took a cab from electronic city to airport and, all set to leave but at the same time worried about the duration of my journey.
It was around 11pm night and the journey started.
Finally, I reached airport
and with usual security checks and other formalities,
I was all set to leave.
It was around 4:30am and a cold weather in May, quite humorous right??
Yes but it is true, I was feeling little cold.
It was a window seat, but I was more intrested in sleep rather than to enjoy.
Aur subeh hote hote apne college, wahi raaste jine maine kch mahino se miss kar raha tha, I was there for past six months, sb kch kitna exciting lag raha tha, finally reached, college gate pr aaya, wahi gate 5,same security guard, and entered, hii u ajeet welcome bro, mere dost, mere bhai sb intezaar kr rahe the, shayad main tha hi aisa, ek do ne maarne ka plan bhi kiya tha, ye hamare yaha ka ek traditional way of welcoming tha, dosto ka, hahahaha hahah, auto waale bhaiya yaha mat rokna i said to auto driver plz plz aage niklo, rukiye rukiye Haa ab kaha bhaagoge pkad liya, aur lage maarne hahahaha, thoda ajeeb hai n magar kya karein dost hi aise hain,from there,
as I entered hostel,
same thrilling life,
ooh sorry sorry,
I forgot to tell you that I'm in 3rd year of my engineering, hostel me mujhe Naam mila tha angry young man, 😡😡😡😠😠😠😠
You must be curious to know, why they gave me this name.
I was very often involved myself in all sorts of fights, conflicts and rowdy activities.
Favorite of all sorts of fights in college.
Finally i entered my room, sach mujhe bht Accha lag raha tha wo din, sukoon ki Saans!!..i was like thrilled to have back, I have so many things which I had missed in these months.
Canteen ke bhr aana, wahi apna purana adda, baithna, ladki dekhna, rowdy more like ghoomna, all started and our gang is now complete.
one day canteen ke bahr baithe ladki dekh rahe the, "nayan sukh le rahe the" , ki acchanak mere nazar ruki, ha ha Usi par,omg ye kya ho gaya mujhe, wo masoom si chup chaap apne dost ke Saath canteen ke bhr Jaa rahi thi, dimag to tha hi nai mere Paas, but dil bhi ruk gaya, wo masoomiyat liye chali Jaa rahi thi aur meri nazar maano hat hi nai rahi.....
I was still and confused too,
Main bs Usi par ruk gaya,
Kch der ke liye I was in another's control, ajeeb sa lagne laga, ho skta hai attraction ho, ha ho skta hai, and hm log Phir busy ho gaye.
But kahi n kahi khayal aane laga tha, pura uski ka, classes to karte nai the hm, bas wahi berojgaar ki tereh bhr baithna, hahahaha hahah, Accha hai n,
Maine kch aur bhi ladkiyoo se Baat ki thi but she was totally different, yaa completely different yar, so it continues,
Agle din Phir maine usko mere aage waali table ke Paas dekha,is baar bhi wahi canteen venue tha, main bs usko dekhta hi reh gaya,,,,, oh sorry main abhi tak uska Naam nai bataaya, wo (puchku) Accha hai n,
ooye amit,
come man,
mera junior hai,
Ha sir,
are yr wo ladki koun hai,
Accha ye sir, ha ha, bol n,
Sir meri class mate hai, ooh kya Naam hai?? Bol n usne Naam bataaya, Accha theek hai, bhai amit Yaar acchi lag rahi hai yr, really man, I wanna talk to her!
Bhai Baat Kara skta hai, sir try krte hain.
Hmmm theek hai. Thanks.
First time I wanted to talk to her, I was more involved with my friends and Maar-peet, but now I fall for my so called crush, yaa can be said Yaar she is now my 1st crush in college.
And she left, shayad usko pata chal gaya tha, main puch raha uske baare me, haaa Haa.
Ab kal ka intezaar ho raha tha, kal Phir aayegi wo, subeh zaldi uthne ke liye alarm laga gaya, I woke at 7am morning that day, chal bhai ab ready ho Jaa,
Fresh hokr 8am sharp I went at canteen, and started waiting for her.
Now she will come, now she will come,
AJEET sir kya Baat Hai aaj itni subeh Aa gaye????
Kch nai yar bs aise hi, Aa gaye!
I have to answer a lot of questions now, but who cares man, I don't give shit to these questions now.
She came now, baal khule hue, wo tirchi nazron se dekhna, aur wapas neeche dekh kar chale Jaana.
Wo canteen chali gai.
Aur main bas usko dekhta reh gaya!
I dared and I too entered into canteen, aaj to bol hi dunga, I'm having a crush on you puchku 😍.
Main andar ghusa, oh man, meko hi dekh rahi thi, mere itni himmat nai ho rahi thi ki uski taraf dekh Saku, Baat kya karta main.
Same as usual i took my breakfast and sat behind her table, yaa exactly behind her table, now we are having little eye contact now, but she feels like, haaye! 😘😍.
This time I was little confident.
And again I asked amit, hey amit Yaar uska koi boyfriend hai kya??
Nai sir single hai!
Oh thank God.
Thanks amit, bye catch you later. Shaam me kch der Baad meko ek follow request aaya, instagram pr, and she was her friend, I was hoping for her request but noo it was her friends, may be her friends are quite interested in, but I was like waiting waiting waiting, again waiting,day passed, again same, she came canteen, mere Saamne waali table par, I used to go behind her table and started staring at her. Yaa I feel like the days are golden to me.
Uske kch dost bhi the, now this time, I was alone and they started starring at me, baar baar dekhe Jaa rahi thi, this time I feel like little hesitation but,
I got a clue, and happy from inside,
Next day, I asked my friends girlfriend to please talk to her for me. Plz plz plz goldy talk once yar. She agreed, lekin ek condition hai?
What bol zaldi moti???
Kya bolo n zaldi, I'm ok with everything,
Goldi :- Agar main tmhara Baat karungi to hm sab movie jaayenge, aur treat tm doge theek n??? Zaldi bolo??
Me :- Are Haa Haa theek hai, le lena, and it's time for one more step ahead,
Goldy :- chalo ajeet koi 3saalo me koi ladki pasand to aai!
Acchi Baat Hai.
Me:- Ha ha ha chal ab jaada mt bol, mera kaam Kara n plz.
Yo yo 👌👍 bs yahi bach gaya tha, ladki ke piche time dena, uske baare me sochna but kya karein Ab kch samajh bhi to nai aa raha tha, hold on yr, exams bhi the, but naa uski kisko tension hai, are Haa Haa hm engineers hain, sb ho jaayega. We engineers are having a very cool type mentality and we are really proud of it.
Give a big clap for we engineers, plz cheer once for engineers 👍👍.
Ha ha hm to NASA me hi jaayenge, sb yahi sochte hain 😄😄😄.
I would like to dedicate few lines to her!!.....
"
Kch Khaas Yaad Aane lagi wo,
Naam me bhi Yaad Aane lagi wo,
Ab bacha hi kya tha mujhme,
Kahi khoo rahe the hm,
Ek ham hi to bache the single,
Lag raha hai,
Hme bhi le Jaane lagi wo!!
"
Yaa, similarly let's proceed further goldy agreed to talk from my side, but I was quite scared, ha dara hua tha, kya sochegi wo, kya soch rahi hogi wo, kaisa ladka hai, yahi sab khayal mere
Dil-o-dimag me ghoom rahe hain.
Same night I called goldy, hey sun na, yr plz aaj Baat kar n usse, plz go now.
Ok theek hai, she replied and maine bola hm tmko call krte hain thodi der me, tu tabtak Baat kar le, ok!!
I was waiting and wondering too about the current situation and after 2 hours, goldy called me, Haa bol, Baat ki tm,
Goldy :- Haa hm bole usko, mera ek friend hai, jo tmko like karta hai, Baat karogi, kar lo Accha ladka hai.
She said let me think and then I will tell you. Plz bura mat maanna thoda ajeeb lag raha hai n.
Goldy :- ye uska no. hai jab mn kare to txt kar dena Ok,
Haa kar liye hm Baat, yahi Baat hua, khush 😄😄, ha ha.
Me :- thanks yr, tm hi to ho mere dost.
Now I was badly waiting for her reply.
My mind, soul lost control over them and getting deeper into personalization of her Imagination.
It was a night of excitement and satisfaction.
Next day early in the morning while I was on bed, main sabse Pehle randomly i checked my phone, cool it was 4 whatsapp massages, I opened and found,
Hii sir,
It's me.
I checked her dp and yes omg 🙄🙄😻
It is she, I was more happy as never been through.
I replied
hii back
And said Good morning to her.
And I left.
Fresh hokar, I came out of the hostel for breakfast in a hope to see her today.
There is a calm and happiness inside me and I was very excited to see her.
Yes ofcourse i was very happy.
I saw her, coming from girls hostel, with blue top and denim jeans, her hairs are open and she looks fresh as usual. I was standing aside outside of our canteen.
she was with her one friend and she went to canteen for breakfast.
After 5min of wait, I too went inside canteen.
As I went inside, my eyes startef looking for her.
Starting from first to last, my eyes finally found her.
Yes, there she is, second last row of canteen table.
I took my brkfst and went, sat besides her table. I was facing her, but she was in opposite direction.
I started looking for her, without a blink, after sometime, she turned back.
OMG its she turned back.
I try myself pretending to look at tv, as if she got to know about me, staring.
She asker her friend, to keep an eye on me.
Her friend told her that, yaa look he is watching you.
And both smiled. 😊😊.
It was a kind of satisfaction for me.
And over excited to see her.
I continued staring at her, without even looking at my breakfast.
Who fool, will have breakfast, when a pretty girl is just ahead of your table.
Yes, I'm also not the same.
Hahah hahaha hahaha😊😊😊.
My friend asked me, are you done?
It was the 1st time,
I felt for a girl.
Yes it was her.
You know what, jab main usko dekhta hoon n to ek ajeeb sa sukoon milta hai, she looks very innocent.
Aur sbse alag,
Sbse acchi, sbse pyari.
Till now, I have just read in books about lov at first sight, but it came true in my case.
Usse yar Pehli nazar me pyar ho gaya.
After sometime, she left from canteen back to hostel.
I quickly finished my breakfast and came out to see her.
She was moving towards her hostel and I was like, mad behind her.
Let me tell you about my schedule.
Hahahah hahaha
Quite interesting, waise to I'm an engineering student, but class kabhi nai Jaana, din bhar canteen ke bahar adda maarna, colg campus me ghoomna.
Din bhr, bs dosto ke Saath masti.
Class ka time 10 baze se ho to 10:50 me class Jaana.
Aur wo bhi isliye, Kyoki attendence mil sake.
Same situation is for everyone.
Ek shift morning khtm hua, now it's time for lunch time,
Again after so much of masti, bunking of classes and gossiping, it's time for lunch.
It is around 12:45 pm, everyone moving towards canteen for lunch.
Again I went outside canteen and started looking for her.
Waiting for her to come back.
Yaa there she is, waiting for is the most important work for me.
I hope somebody could with their, but yaa it's true.
She was wearing a green kurti with white apron.
Looking beautiful.
She was like my whole world inside her.
She went inside canteen.
I was waiting for her outside.
I took my phone and checked my Whatsapp.
No new messages.
I quickly texted her.
Hii,
How are you?
Kkrh??
Message was not yet delivered, she might had turned her data off.
After something again I checked my phone,
Yes this time it has delivered.
She might be waiting lunch to finish and then reply me.
She went out, using her phone.
I quickly realized my phone vibration.
Yes it was 3 messeges from her.
Hii
I'm fine.
U?
And she took stairs and gave me a shy eye contact and a beautiful smile ☺.
She rushed to hostel.
I texted her.
What happened?
Kya hua?
Itne zaldi me kaha?
And stared waiting for her reply.
Haa,
Yr, late ho rahe class ke liye.
Talk to you later.
Bye 👋.
Bol kar she went.
After sometime, I went to my hostel, for a nap.
I went to my room, checked her dp, smiled, and went to bed.
I wake up at 5pm evening, and suddenly rushed towards canteen, but I was soo early.
Again the usual routine starts, waiting outside.
People are coming after their classes and main lofer ki tareh ghoom raha.
Shayad mai hi apna college life enjoy kar raha tha.
She came, ooh yaa, wo Aa rahi thi.
She passed by my side, with a cute ignorance.
Uski ignorance me bhi ek ajeeb si khushi thi.
It all goes in slow motion for me.
Similarly It all went to night, same waiting for her. And there is a kind of satisfaction in me that looking at her and just smiling from inside.
It is the most beautiful feeling, I ever felt.
Yes.
Not everyone are aware about my situation. How I'm happy righ now.
I was walking in my college campus and my phone rings.
It was my friends call.
Hello,
Haa bol, Kaha hai,
Me: are main yahi hoon, lovers point.
Ook theek hai, aao.
Hold on you people migh getting a new place name.
Lovers point?
Yes, a space in my college, where, couples used to come and spend there time.
I was waiting for my friend.
Here he comes, with his girlfriend.
Hii, I replied.
They asked me, how's my new lif going.
Abe kya bol raha?
Kaisa chal raha hai.
Hmmmm, Haa bhai sb the hai,
with a shy expression.
Her girlfriend is also a good friend of mine.
She asked me aur, Kaha tak Baat pahucha.
I replied, theek hi hai yar.
Tmko pata hai.
Kya??
Are kl raat, mujhe uska msg aaya, Haa yr, I'm soo happy 😊.
Boli to ab Kya Baat karo.
Waise maine bola tha, ki ladka Accha hai, Baat kar skti ho.
Ho skta hai, msg isiliye aaya.
Haa yar thanks soo much, i said to her.
She asked u have to give me treat, and one chocolate, one amul milk shake bs.
Me: loot Io hmko.
With a smile and agreed, Haa theek hai mil jaayega tmko.
And they went.
I was still sitting on that place, and thinking of her.
I seems like I'm dreaming.
After dinner I went to my room.
My friend is my roommate, he came and asked me, Kya be kaha tak baat pahuchi.
Haa bhai try kar raha hoon.
Aakhir tujhe bhi pyar ho hi gaya usne bola.
Ooh kya bol raha hai yr.
I replied Haa bhai but abhi to whatsapp no mila hai.
Kya karein bol n bhai.
Friend : Sun Pehle dosti kar.
Hmm yar tu sahi bol raha.
You are right. I should go step by step.
Suddenly my phone vibrates.
My screen pop up and it was
2 messeges from her.
I was like small kids, jumped in my room last night like a small kid usses.
I'm more like small 🧒 kid.
I opened my Whatsapp.
And it was!!
Hii.
Kkrh?
I was thinking what to do now.
I replied,
Hii,
Kch nai bas, room me hain.
Abhi tumse Baat kar rahe.
I said, u say,
How's your day?
She: Accha tha.
Me: tm bolo kkrh?
She: kuch nai, bs, aise hi,
Baat kar rahe tmse.
I said u were looking beautiful today.
And with a complement, I said I saw you in canteen.
She: thanks.
Maine bhi tmko dekha.
And this way our conversation begins.
I asked her, can we be friends 😊?
Yes, sure she replied.
Me: aur bolo tm?
Kya karogi Abhi?
She:Abhi kch der Baat, Phir soo jaungi.
Me :ook
I also asked about today's dinner.
How's it?
She : theek hi tha.
It was Friday, and we are having menu of fish curry in non-veg and mix-veg in veg. She replied it was ook.
By the way, she is vegetarian. Oho sorry eggitetian.
Me:ook
Me: you sleep so early?
She:sarif ladkiya zaldi soo jaati hain.
She smiled and said this thi to me.
Me: tab to mujhe bhi zaldi sona padega.
It was around 11pm night.
Me: thodi der aur Baat kar skti hain!
She: are hmko neend Aa raha hai.
Yar kl baat karte hain.
Me: hey, kl kitne baze brkfst krne Jaana Hai?
She : kyu?
Me:aise hi, puch rahe.
She:around 8:30
Me:ek bat bolu?
Me: plzz kal meko 8baze utha dena yr.
Plzz, plzz, plzz
Kl subeh utha dena.
She :naa, khud se Utho.
Me: kyu yar, utha do n, plzz.
Khud se nai Uth paate.
She: subeh uthane se, tmko meri aadat lag jaayegi.
Me: nai lagegi.
Plzz plzz plzz, kl utha do n.
She : ook theek hai!
Happy 😊
Me: Haa, very happy.
She : ab main jaaun sone?
Me: Haa sure Jaao, soo Jaao.
Me: good night
Sweet dreams.
She: good night.
And she went.
I was more happy, like floating in air, quickly jump out of my bed and started dancing.
After sometime, I went for sleep.
Early in the morning around 8:30 am, my phone vibrates, but unfortunately I was still sleeping.
At 9am I woke and checked my phone.
There was 3 missed calls from her.
I quickly got up and after sometime left for canteen.
This tym I was late, when I reached canteen, she just left.
I was so unlucky.
I called her.
Hello,
Hii,
Sorry yr neend nai khula,
It's ok.
Had ur brkfst?
Haa, Jaa rahe hostel.
I could see her, leaving for hostel.
Getting a call from her early morning us like paradise for me.
I finished my breakfast.
With usual routine, I spent some time with my friends, waiting outside canteen.
Looking for people passing by, gossiping with my friends.
It was all fun loving life and I'm enjoying my life.
somehow I'm missing my Bangalore busy life. But with the entry of her in my life made me think of her and me 100times a day.
And I'm quite happy with this.
It is currently the best feeling ever felt.
Most of the people think that I'm ruining my career and taking it easy and comfortable.
But practically I'm lost somewhere else.
In the evening, I thought of texting her.
Me: hii,
She: hello
Me: kya kar rahi ho?
She : kch nai bs aise hi baithe hain.
She: Haa, tm bolo kkrh?
I soon turned my Whatsapp off and called her.
Hmm hii.
Hii, she replied.
Me: actually I'm feeling a bit bore, so I called you.
She: Haa theek hai.
Me: aur batao, kya kar rahi?
She : kuch nahi.
Me: kya karogi Abhi?
She : kch nai, abhi thoda ghar Baat karenge, Phir thoda padhai.
Me : ook theek hai.
Me: bye talk to you later.
Take care.
Take care bol kr, I was wondering what she will think.
But she replied, you too and bye.
Speaking to her is an amazing feeling and made me feel soo happy.
Next day same, going early to canteen just to see her and all sort of things which makes me feel like I'm floating.
Yaa it was a waw moment for me.
I have never been this much attached with anyone.
Lekin mujhe kya pata tha, ye attachment aur aage badhti hi jaayegi.
Wo Insaan mere liye itna Khaas ho jaayega.
Ab lagta hai shayad, wo hi zindagi hai.
Is baat ko main Yaad karke aage badh raha tha.
The very next night, we had a long conversation started.
I used to go to my hostel terrace and talk to her.
We started having conversation of our family.
Who all are there in your family?
She replied with gentle smile.
Me, mom, dad, and two elder sisters.
And slowly I introduced my small family to her.
I was like so involved in talking to her as if I'm going deep down in thoughts of her.
Sharing her my personal life is like I'm sharing things with someone of my own.
She is like mirror to me.
I started loving her like no one can ever love her.
Slowly and gradually we started our conversation and started sharing all our personal life.
I was like rowdy and I used to involve myself in college fights.
I will explain this, when we will proceed further.
Endless talk and sleepless nights and we two are like know only each other.
It started slowly slowly.
One day I had some problems in my college and was very upset with that issue.
I had a conflict within my college department and I was called and scholed in front of everyone.
The very moment I was very upset and angry by the behavior of my college.
In the meanwhile she texted me.
She: hii
Me: hello
She: kya kar rahe ho?
Me: I told I'm very upset.
And I explained everything happened to me.
And I said I'm leaving this college by next week.
She was like very shocked hearing this.
Things were going on.
And in anger I asked her, what she thinks about me?
Kya tm girlfriend banogi meri?
Can we be together?
Before meeting her I was not sure if I can allow anyone to be this much close to me, but now it feels like she is even more than anything for me.
She replied no!
I was so shocked and with a dim low voice said ook.
She said look, we hardly know each other, and she don't want to be in a relationship. I thought this might not be the right time. I said I'm having a feeling for you and trust me I will never ever leave you. You mean a lot to me.
I have never felt this for anyone, we understand each other and trust me it will be a great relationship. I was like more involved in convincing her to be with me. By that time feeling is getting at its peak.
All sorts of conversations happened but she said so, we can only be good friends. This concept of good friendship is like someone killing me from inside.
I was not at a mood to understand this and I said look, I'm having a very strong feeling for you and with this feeling I cannot be friend.
Sorry this is the right time I guess let's not talk.
I was in huge anger she replied that she cannot me a commitment, she cannot give me relationship. That day I said let's finish this here and not extend anymore.
"two people know each other,
And now they are strangers again."
With the mixed feeling of anger and sadness, I was completely broke.
Nothing seems ok with me.
I sometimes open my phone to check whether any msgs from her on not and again put back in there place.
No calls, no msgs, the one once had a long call talking over phone, a huge whatsapp msgs, all are leaving me like, everything is moving forward except me.
It was very tensed situation, I could have never believed.
I sometimes look at sky and question God, what wrong I have done to anyone, why this is happening to me.
Tell me what's wrong with me.
I guess I care for people, I respect for others giving me such pain??????
The question, I ask every time and feels broken at every moment.
In the evening I went to terrace and sat at corner and started thinking about what wrong I have done!
