2 Sun

Chapter 2

-You didn't come here for nothing ... Something is jamming you too, you can see it in your eyes. Are you very tired, will you tell?

-I'm very tired. I burned out. He destroyed me.

-Who is he?

-Yes, in France I have only about six months, I have lived in the USA all my life. I had everything: family, friends, studies and Chase. We met for about 2 years, met at a standard teen party, friends decided to bring their introverted friend out into the world, tobish me. He sat for a long time at the bar and I thought he was asleep. That's how we met. I still love him.

-Why did you break up?

-I studied and dreamed of my book, newspaper or magazine. He published his stories, articles, and novels on various sources. I was offered to continue my studies at a philological university here in France, they said that they would pay me for it if I study well, participate in events and work as an editor for a student publishing house. This is a huge opportunity for me and Chase knew. He supported and even helped me write. We lay in a hammock, he touched my hair in his fingers, looked at the fluffy clouds and picked up a cross rhyme for the competition. That was until he refused to go with me. There was no obvious reason, as I initially thought. A few months later, I saw a photo on his Instagram. He and Charlie smiled sweetly for the camera. This broke me, as well as comments like: "I saw today how they kissed sweetly around the corner" or "They flirted so sweetly in the restaurant." It was clear that the boy was confused or just waiting for me to get off to be with her. I do not know how long they met behind my back. I know Chase well enough. We have been reaching that level of relationship for a long time, he needs a lot of time to accept "his" person. He is very selective towards people and looks into the soul for a long time. It is difficult for him to trust someone and I would never have thought that he could do that, he deceived me for a long time, no, I don't say that he didn't love me, I know that he did, but I don't understand what the moment everything did not go according to plan and I blame myself for it. Suddenly, I did not see how he was broken, suddenly, I was so forgotten then in the work that I stopped noticing what he was feeling? I will never know the answer ... He He didn't say anything to me, just: "Noah, now you don't ... I can't." It was right on the platform, in front of my parents and friends. He was probably standing with an empty suitcase, which he took for show, so as not to upset me right away, although he might not have come at all then, but I would not have gone without him. At first I rode the train in shock, I did not understand anything. dreams just collapsed. I thought that we would cook lush pancakes together in our rented apartment in Marseilles, and on weekends go to Paris to read in the meadow of our beloved Brontë sisters, where everything is fed up with romance and a happy life. I thought he would see off me to the university, at home to prepare everything for the last exams in my architecture, and in the evening we will cook dinner, throwing food at each other and singing along to our favorite playlist. Now I am alone ..., - I could not hold back the emotions that I was saving all this time and missed a few salty, but such bitter tears on my cheek

-Well, baby, do not cry, everything will work out ... We will go through these troubles together, I will not brok you ...

-S-Thank you, Pat ... I promise I won't leave you

***

This crazy woman will soon bring me to seizures. I don't dare so much. How can a person carry so much positive in himself? This is crazy

With her, I blossomed. The bags under my eyes, in which I could put potatoes, disappeared, the hair that was like straw glistened, the long-extinguished eyes lit up with a bright flame. I don't want to sleep without her, if the bed is empty next to me, then I'm dying. I don't want without her hugs, it's unbearable to want her. I don't want to breathe without her, only the blanket will warm my shoulders, she knows it doesn't heal me. How could she? We've only lived together for a couple of weeks. My dirty apartment has become with her a fabulous valley, smelling of peaches, fragrant cherries, dried daisies. The darkness parted, it became the sun.

***

-Darling, I'm home!

-Noen! You quickly today, -said the patrician, helping to untie a tight scarf around my neck and gently kissing the opened areas

-Imagine, this boring professor Carlston did not show up for the last couple today and we were dismissed. By the way, I saw him on the bus with some young lady, gorgeous flowers and a box of expensive sweets, - I scoffed while my girlfriend was fussing in the kitchen - you why so horny?

-I wanted to ask you something ...

-Of course, baby, whatever, if only you shine

-I was going to get together with Francesca and celebrate her "public law" credit

-What's the matter? Sleep on our bed, and I'll fit on the sofa here. Great, rest, otherwise you're tense lately, let me go for something tasty for now? -I said it very quickly, but with such a huge care and started going to the nearest store

-And how did I manage to grab such a wonderful thing? -Patricia was delighted and threw herself with strong hugs - I love you

-I will you

I may have been so kind and gentle, but something was going on inside, I never slept without her. And I know how it will end.