Midnight thoughts

-Summer's POV-

I'm so excited for tomorrow that I can't sleep! It's so weird how I'm feeling excited, nervous and anxious all at the same time. I hate going to new places and I hate eating alone!

Hopefully there won't be much drama and I can just stay as low profile and just have a couple of friends that I can be who I really am. Lecturers always tell me that I am too playful that I won't be able to handle any tasks given and then they never give me the chance to prove myself! This time, things are going to change! I am going to get in a position so high that at the same time I'm still as playful as ever to show them I can do it! "You most definitely can do it Sum!" "Thanks Mou!"(Short for Maurice)

First day of university finally came, I can't even feel how excited or unexcited because I end up watch YouTube videos all the way until just now since I couldn't sleep... Insomnia again, happened so often that I couldn't even be bothered by it anymore but somehow I just feel like tomorrow will be the start of an unknown journey.

Summer just casually lie on the bed with her midnight thoughts hitting her suddenly like a storm.

"Sometimes I wish that I would have someone that would love me unconditionally like how everyone is with their fated mate." "Would things be different if I found him/her?"

"Would he love me unconditionally for who I am?" "I loved to act strong in front of people and am such an awkward potato all the time around people, am never pretty, am never slim."

"I love food more than anything yet it doesn't fulfil me." "I don't feel like I'm living like how I'm supposed to, breathing feels like something that I should just because."

"Would I finally receive love if I found the one?" "Will he approach me or would I have to look at him loving another?"