Persistence vs Perseverance

After that horrible dinner I began to get very paranoid. Anxiety had always been a problem for me, but Yoongi hardly had time for anyone, let alone other women. He was friends with Suran and I was fine with it...but Yun Hee was different. I just had this sinking feeling and I didn't know what I wanted to do about. I knew I should talk to Yoongi about it, but I didn't want to seem petty. In my mind I had only two options. Be extra clingy and protective which he might find annoying. The second choice would most likely have a similar effect. I could be distant from him. This way if he did want to he with her, I was already preparing for the hurt.

Somewhere in my heart and gut I knew both of these things were wrong, but the anxiety monster had taken over for the first time in a long time and i was unable to rationalize anything. I avoided Yoongi's concerned gazes and was quiet the whole way home. I clung onto him the whole way home in case it would be the last time. I could tell Yoongi wanted to talk, but he was waiting to be at my place where there was no driver and other prying ears.

Once we arrived home I went inside, took off my shoes, and hung up my purse. Yoongi hugged me from behind. "Baby, what's wrong? You're quiet. That's usually not a good thing. Are you sick again? We can go to the Dr in the morning," Yoongi voiced his concern. I shook my head and sighed as I leaned into him. " I'm just tired, my love " Yoongi didn't buy it but ue wasn't one to push on certain things. " Let's shower together. That always brightens your mood," he suggested in my ear in that low and playful tone.

I couldn't help but smile because ge was right. "Alright, let's shower," Yoongi let go at my response and followed me to the master bathroom. I turned on my speaker and put on my shower playlist. Yoongi chuckled at me and grabbed our towels before turning on the water and making it very warm, just the way I liked it. The warm water helped the pain from my chronic illness, at least for a while. I slowly undressed as well since I was sore and stiff from the stress of everything that happened earlier in the day.

I stepped into my shower and sighed in relief as the warm water washed over me. Yoongi followed behind me and just quietly help me close for a few minutes before finally speaking. "Please remember, no matter what happens I will always love you, my moon," I pursed my lips but nodded. For some reason I didn't like the sound of that. It sounded like something was going to happen. I bit my lip a bit. "I love you too, Yoongi. Forever and always". He stepped away from me for a moment as he grabbed the shampoo and moved me out of the water a bit so he could wash my hair.

After taking turns until our hair was clean he turned me around and looked me up and down. "You know, you looked amazing tonight but this is definitely my favorite look on you," he smirked as he rubbed my sides gently. I blushed and tried to hide my face but he stopped me and kissed me slow and deep. I wrapped my arms around him and kissed back as if it was the last time I'd ever get a chance to do so. Rather quickly things got heated as we helped each other reach ecstasy.

After that night Yun Hee began popping up nearly everywhere I was. Even when Yoongi wasn't there. I was beginning to feel like I was being stalked. It wasn't long until things escalated and she started saying and doing things to lead me on and place doubt in my heart. I hated the way I was feeling, but the longer i waited the more I was too afraid to bring it up to Yoongi. This would lead to the hardest time in my life and I had brought it upon myself by not communicating. I'm getting ahead of myself again. Back to Yun Hee and how she chipped away at me.

Yun Hee was very subtle when Yoongi was around. She would lean on him or rub his back. Sometimes she would move closer to him. On this particular day she decided to push it a bit by excluding me from the conversation as much as she could  "oh goodness Yoonie! Do you remember when we use to go play in the creek?" Yoongi actually blushed at this and moved away from her. " Please don't bring that up..." He was clearly embarrassed but Yun Hee just giggled. " What's wrong? It's innocent for younger kids to be naked or in only undergarments when playing in water." My eyes widened and I choked a bit on my sweet tea. Yoongi made sure I was ok, but Yun Hee faked a scream and said she was scared so he went to help her. That's how he was. He liked helping people he cared for.

This kept up for a couple weeks and I was miserable. The anxiety and stress was making me tired and nauseous. I never felt well. I was really dejected when Yoongi began sending me home from work. "Bethy, you look...like you don't feel well. Please go home and rest. I'll check on you the moment I have free time," he absent mindedly kissed my head and said goodbye. I was quietly crying the whole way home until the sadness turned into a burning rage. I recognized that car by my place. What the hell was Yun Hee doing here? I cleaned up my face the best I could before letting the driver know I was ready to be let out. Bracing myself I approached Yun Hee.