13 poisson

"do we need distance to see clear?"

well, it would've been less traumatic if we figured it out together. that's what i tend to believe. i think that's what i truly choose to believe, because the right side of things has always been mine to adore, yet we met through the negativity of our loneliness, and we became each other's escape. we had no clue that the wicked side of life would motivate us to be in love with something bigger than love.

distance is such a disorted concept that people find it hard to embrace. i've been burning through distance when there was nothing but the sun moving through the heavens of my mind, my sun... the sun that was shining through the good and the bad sides of my existence.

i hope you still know that distance has no other destination than right next to you, as your blue eyes give me endless reasons to drown myself in them— to drown myself in you. repeatedly.

what could be more destructive than drowning yourself in the ocean of your lover's eyes?

it could be the fact that the lover isn't truly your lover, you just turned the one you fell for into the prisoner of your expectations.

that's the lie everyone believes in: the fact that you'd eventually force yourself into someone's life. it would've been cruel, but, the worst and the best of it all was the fact that i was tied to you, it satisfied us— we were sharing each other's hands, each other's eyes, yet we couldn't share each other's minds. the individuality ended up surpassing and inhabiting our lives.

so, you asked me: "do we need distance to see clear?" and now, from an unknown distance, i'm trying to motivate the answer, slowly fabricating the presence i still crave from you.

it's the answer you'll never truly receive unless you come and get it.