Prologue

At first it was just normal, when everytime i looked at you I felt nothing, hindi naman lingid sa kaalaman kong boyfriend ka ng bestfriend ko,and as days,months,years pass by, the two of us became close friends, I was always there when she's never there for you, it's like tayo ang may relasyon dahil tayo ang palaging magkasama. I am the girl na palaging ka date at kakwentuhan mo.I am the girl na hinarap mo sa parents mo because Liv was not there, alam nating pareho na may masasaktan but i chose to let it go. I was happy not until I realize I felt something that I shouldn't.

Am I selfish for wishing na sana ako nalang?

Am I selfish for falling kahit na alam kong walang pag-asa?

Am I selfish for wanting you to want me?

Alam kong may masasaktan, I was thinking that it was me, and you're thinking it was her. How tragic, I chose to love you yet you chose her. Hindi ko naman hinihingi ang pagmamahal mo but I was hoping for it.

I know, it's not right, I know.....that's why I chose to stay away without you knowing my feelings.  But fate? .... hindi ko alam kung anong plano niya at pinagtagpo tayong muli, and it was my cue to tell you para hindi nako mabaliw sa kakaisip, your actions says you love me, but your words says otherwise, and I regret telling you how I feel, it feels like I became a stranger when you said those words...

"I like you Ali, I care for you, I really do, but I'm inlove with your bestfriend"  

And all I want is to make this feeling dissapear, I want to find a Reason so that I can unlove you,

I just kinda wish you were Gay...