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Fangirl404: [Wassup bro]
I cringed. Acting normal is hard work.
presidentJoonie: [I don't want to pry but from your comments it seems that you don't like yourself all that much.]
Fangirl404: [On the contrary, I love myself but life hates me.]
presidentJoonie: [Are you okay?]
Fangirl404: [Yeah? Thanks for asking but I am fine. I can just be a little overdramatic sometimes.]
presidentJoonie: [Good to hear that. You being fine that is. Not that being over dramatic is bad. One of my friends is like that too.]
I couldn't help letting a small smile slip out. They sounded so flustered it was almost seemed cute. Almost, if my anxiety wasn't shooting up to heavens. I have to end this quick.
Fangirl404: [Well.. it was nice talking to you but I gotta go now. See ya!]
And I quickly logged off without waiting for the reply.
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I still haven't finished my work and I still have no inspiration....
or motivation...
or will to live....
I shook my head off the stupid thoughts that sneak up to it quite frequently and in a quest to distract myself I turn towards the electronic device that lay forgotten over the past few days. Opening it brings forth a flurry of notifications. It's them...
presidentJoonie: [Oh.. Okay, see ya later I guess.
I hope I didn't weird you out.
You there??
I swear I am not a weird person. I don't even talk to people like this.
You just seemed really sad and I wondered if you were okay. Because you are an ARMY too.]
Surprise doesn't even come close to explaining what I felt. It was really good to see someone worrying about a stranger's well-being, as a fellow ARMY but I was kind of uneasy too. They said I looked sad, probably the first person to tell me this in a long while and only from a single comment at that. Should I be happy that someone cares? Or scared.. that someone looked right through my facade and a stranger no less.
I didn't know but I knew this- when someone shows kindness, the least I can do is give a proper reply and thus I started brain-storming on what would be the best way to reply, to show my gratitude and fix the mask that somehow slipped off.
Fangirl404: [Hey! Sorry for the late, late reply but you know how the life of a fangirl is *sigh* I couldn't even get over the first mv and BTS dropped the second one! It was too much for my fangirl heart!
As for that comment, I was always a dramatic person… even as a 5 year old, if I didn't get attention I would go into a corner and sing sad songs LOL
But thank you for looking out for me fellow ARMY! I really appreciate it but really how can I not be okay with BTS around? Those guys are seriously my reason to live!
I mean how can someone be so adorable and talented and sincere and kind and simply amazing?]
Being satisfied with the tone and content, I pressed enter, somehow hoping to get a prompt reply. I didn't but that's understandable, no one is that free, what I couldn't understand the slight disappointment I felt when I didn't even know who the other person is. I really am weird.
A few hours of immersing myself in work, I was brought out of the zone by the sound of a notification and never have I ever acted so fast in my life than that one moment as I rushed to check the device.
It was an ad.
I was sad.
A bit mad.
I'll stop.
The most awaited reply came two days later.
presidentJoonie: [Ah… I understand. Last few days have been really busy for me too now that the new album is out but I am glad you are okay.]
Fangirl404: [So you were streaming too? That's great! We need all the hands on the deck if we want to our boys to remain at the top. As ARMYs say – Sleep? What is that? We know only BTS.]
presidentJoonie: [kekekeke you seem to really like them. How long have you been an ARMY for?]
Fangirl404: [Oh! I have been lurking here for over two years. And yeah... who doesn't like them? I mean it's not easy what they do but they still give their all for us, trying their best. And such sincerity! You can't help but look up to them.
And here I go blabbering again *face palm* I seriously don't know when to shut up. But what about you? How long have you been an ARMY? And are you a boy or a girl? The readers want to know.
I am a girl btw.
But it's clear from my username LOL.]
presidentJoonie: [I am a boy and I have been here right from the start but 'the readers'?]
Fangirl404: [Oh… you know like in news, the anchors get all fired up and say something along the lines of 'the nation wants to know'? I was working for that kind of feel. Told ya I was one hell of a dramatic person.]
presidentJoonie: [Oh.. so that's what you meant.]
Fangirl404: [What else did you think it was? This ain't a fan-fiction bruh.]