8 Ch. 8 - New beginning?

The day I have to be more independent. Showing off the world that I am not what they're thinking. I have my own imperfections and flaws, but I ain't giving up. This is not the end, like I said, I'm only starting. Life is full of versions and bad timing, but let's not encourage ourselves to just slump down and surrender. We have rights, we will fight for what we have. People may think that you're confident, but deep inside you're broke. That's the fact not to let anyone see you in this state of matter. Show them that you are confident with your flaws and disfigurement. Fat or thin, pretty or ugly, old-style or new-style, rich or poor; none of them will succeed If they do not accept who they really are.

Seeing the people in front of us, performing our new hit album. Yes, I had debut and became an idol. We're not that popular, but who cares. This is the way to make myself proud being a person who embraced her imperfection.

"I'm so exhausted" the other member said. I keep silent while taking deep breathes. I drank my water and sat down. I was thinking about quitting the group, but maybe I'll think about this next time. I'll give myself a second chance to enjoy what I have now before it's all gone. I couldn't focus on my last year of being a college student. After college, maybe I'll leave the group to find money, to help Auntie Carol. We went back to our studio to practice after our exhausting performance. Yes! Being an idol is not easy. You'll have to work hard and I had to do my homework in the practice room while practicing. I do this routine since 4 and a half years from now. I still need to graduate College. This is the disadvantage of being an idol because you cannot and could not graduate college because first you are too busy to focus and second you need to have millions to study college. I'm just too fortunate of being a scholar in our university and I'm thankful for that.

It was already 11 pm and we're still practicing. We ended up at 3:28 am and went back to our dorm at 4 am.

The next day, I decided to take a break and visit Auntie Carol and also the boys. I sneak in and hide the pizzas I bought. I planned to surprise them. I saw them playing Overwatch. I wonder where Auntie Carol is. I haven't heard about her in a while. I went upstairs and knock on their room. It opened and saw Auntie. "Auntie~ it's been awhile. How are you doing?" I asked and I sat down next to her. "Dear, I appreciate your effort, but you didn't have to visit us. It may affect your career." She said worriedly and I pat her shoulder. "Auntie, Its fine. I had told Uncle about this already." I smiled. I remembered I bought something for her. "Auntie, here is my present for you." I gave her a box. "What's this? My birthday is on June. It's November now." She replied. "Auntie, it's a present for you. Thank you for being kind and took care of me." She kind of tear up. I hugged her. "Go visit the boys. Ethan couldn't stop talking about you." she said and I chuckled. I went downstairs and pop out of the living room where the boys were playing.

They were all shocked and couldn't move. "Pizza for everybody, I guess." I said awkwardly because they were like looking at me as if I'm a ghost. Then they suddenly burst towards me and yeah hovered me since I was now laying on the floor. "YN!" they all shouted. "Yeah you don't have to shout. My ears kind of damage." I said and snatch the pizza away from me. "Yah! Give me back that pizza!" I yelled. "You said it is for us." Jacob said and I glared at him. "Give me also." I whined. I noticed Ethan is approaching me and I look up to him. "How are you? How's Idol life?" he asked while grinning. "Well, I feel you already. I'm sorry if I lost contact with you." I said and he hushed me. "I know that, Sophie. Being a new group, all is prohibited and confiscated, but if you've been like how many years being an idol, I think uncle would allow you." being proud of himself. "Wow! Says who is longer in an Idol world." We laughed.

The night was all about Ethan on how he watches me dance on YouTube. I was flustered with that, but yeah he always does that. We ended up drinking some alcohol. Sharing stupid jokes with Liam.