2 Confidence : You're Strong
She arrived to her house , now she is in front of the door , ( Knock Knock ) she knocked the door and she interred inside " Mom , Dad I'm back " , she closed the door .
" Why are you late ? , I've told you to comeback before 6 pm and now it's 7 pm , do you need a new lesson about time ?! " replied her dad with an angry voice .
" Sorry dad , the car was late and we had some important things to do before comeback "
" Can I know what are these things more important than my instruction ?! "
" I've told you that I'm sorry dad ! please , I don't want a war now just because I'm a little beat late "
" Okay , maybe I was more angry than I had to but don't do it again , you know that I don't like someone to disobey me "
" I promise you that I won't do it again , you know that I love you and I don't like to see you angry because of me "
" Come her sweaty , but why you look that much sad ? you didn't have fun ?! "
" No , it was fun but .... "
" But what sweat heart " Came her mother from the kitchen .
" Actually , I wanna talk with you about something "
" Speak , we won't kill you , you know " ( weak laughing )
" Today , I had the chance to participate to a competition "
" What kind of competitions ?! "
" A kpop competition about singing and dancing "
" Oh my girl , why you still loving these things ?! you don't think that you better concentrate on your studies . You loosed and now you feel bad true ?! "
" In the reality it's the opposite , I was the winner "
" Really ! congrats baby , but , why are you sad ?! you have to be happy am I wrong ?! what you win ?! "
" This is what I wanted to tell you about . You know as the winner of the competition , they proposed me a gift , they told me that I have the chance to go to Korea and be a star in the same company of the Korean boys that I love . I will train for a year or more then , they will help me to do my first song and be famous . They also told me that I don't need to think too much about where I will live and study cause they will take the charge of all this , and it's all free " .
" So , what suppose we to do ? you did refuse no ?! you know that you just have 15 , you're too young to live without us and I'm sure that you can't do this . Don't tell me that you wanna go ? " replied her dad .
" Yes , I know that , and I understand your opinion , but it's also my dream and I won't have this chance again "
" What do you wanna say ?! your dream was to be a doctor since you were a baby so what changed it ?! you better stay here and study , then , when you will be older , you can go where you want "
" Okay dad . Excuse me but I'm tired , I will go to my room to sleep ".
" Lydia wait , look I know that you wanna go , sorry my reaction was a little beat .... you know what , if you think that you can go and live without us so go , but think more cause this decision will change your whole life , okay ?!
" Yes , thanks I will go now "
She went to her room and start crying , " Why they can't understand me ?! , why they can't respect my dreams and my thinks ?! Why they don't believe in me ?! I really wanna go but I have to stay , even if I convince them to let me go , they don't really believe that I can be a famous idol and the worst thing is that I can't convince myself to let them , what have I to do ?! " She took the card of Bednem , she was looking to his phone number . Just a call , all she needs is just one call to make all her dreams come true , but ..... ( Why ?! .... ) " what is this voice " ... ( Stop , don't tell me what to do ) " Is it .... Dad ?! "
she ran to their room and she found them ...
" Mom dad , what are you doing ?! "
" Lydia come and look ! look what I found in his jacket , he still smoke , look ! " Said her mom .
" Dad is it true ?! "
her dad didn't answer .
" You see sweaty , see , the doctor told us that he will die if he continue this and look at hem , I was stupid when I thought that he will really give up smoking . You don't care about us ?! what will we do if you die ?! ha !! answer !!! don't stay like a status , speak ! "
" Don't scream , you will make the boy awake " replied her father .
"And now you care about your children hah ! what about this , I've told you thousand times to leave this bad habit but you don't listen to me , why ?! why you're doing this to me , what did I do to deserve this life ?! " Her mom was crying so hard and Lydia ..... she was shocked , her eyes were full of sadness , tears and anger , she didn't say anything till the moment ..... She can't support more pain . " Stoooop ! Shut up ! I'm done , I can't , I can't support more , I'm a human and I have many feelings inside , I'm paining , don't you see that ?! I'm dying inside , and you what ?! everyday a new problem , everyday a new story , dad , don't you love us ?! don't you care about us ?! don't you want us to grow up and our parents are alive ?! why you're killing yourself ?! why ?! You know what , I can't live with you anymore , I can't support this daily fights , and what ?! I was thinking that I won't go to the purchase of my dreams , why ?! cause I can't leave you , stupidity . Please don't try to stop me cause I will go and now ".
" What ?! Lydia comeback here , come! "
she back to her room , closed the door and called Bednem ( the sound of the phone , ring ring )
" Hello Mr Bednem , it's me Lydia "
" Oh hi , it was faster than I thought , so have you decided ? "
" Yes , actually I accept to go with you "
" Oh great "
" Yeah but , can I come to you now to know more about it "
" Yes sure , you know , you're so lucky , I have two tickets now for the fly of tomorrow , we can go if you want , send me your address and I will send you a car to take you , do you want to stay the night in your house or in the hotel that I'm in "
" It will be nice if I can go now so yeah , in the hotel "
" So prepare yourself , I will send you the car "
" Okay thanks " .
She send her address to Bednem and prepare herself to go but her heart was not okay , she was paining , even if she will realise her dream she was so sad that she will leave all the persons that she loves and also her lovely parents .
" Why did I do this ? I can't live without them , I'm not ready to do this ( Lydia , open this door ) my mom calls me but I won't open the door , maybe they will learn something , will I really leave this room hah , after all this years .... ~Lydia what's going on~ ..... nothing , it's just that , I don't think that I can go ..... ~ No , of course you can , you did surpass many things no ?! you're strong , you will be a star , just believe in yourself , I believe in you ~ but actually you're me ! ~ yes , so you believe in yourself and you will do it ~ yes sure I will do it ~ don't regret any choice that you did in your life ~ yes I won't , maybe my parents will be angry of me today but I will comeback , I will comeback and I'm one of the most famous persons in the world and they will forgive me . I'm confident , I'm strong and I can .
