1 Juwan

"Ju, you are not born to just sit, eat and poop. But if you were a good girl you will be definitely offering your help", said Juwan's mom Annie in a tough sound while Juwan was reading a spiritual article appeared in the newspaper, so attentively that she never gave her ears to moms words. Even though Juwan loves her family, she is not good at caring and being polite. She is very rude and arrogant that makes everyone think that she is a bitch. She likes to buy them gifts and things that brings happiness to them. But she is not good at her attitude. Because the things done by her is immediately forgotten by every single person she knows even though they are better at remembering her flaws. That's why she thinks that in real aspect 'Everyone is alone' and the one who loves and cares her most in the world is she itself. These thoughts are always wandering in her mind.

She is the eldest of three children in her family. As a child she has faced numerous troubles because of that. When she was smaller everyone thought that she envied the younger ones and had been made guilty for no reason but just misunderstandings. The fact that they were just misunderstandings without any basis was known to Juwan only. Everyone had forgotten those problems so easily as it was all beared by Juwan itself till now. They have all became deeply rooted wounds that can only be erased by Alzheimer' s disease.

Yet her siblings were the only drop of hope in midst of the ocean of despair. As a teenager, she have to fought with all the oddities by herself. No one supported her whole heartedly. She had no friends. She was aloof and alone. She talked to herself. She shared her happiness and sadness with herself. She cared herself. She loved loneliness because when she is alone no one can hurt her. She was always fearful of misunderstandings and it's consequences . Because both her mom and dad had no faith in her. They considered her as cunning, cruel and flirty. They always complained about her and supported the younger ones. In a month's time there will be at least two vigorous fights with words with her mom. But at all these situations she was heavily helped by the God. The almighty was the one and only hope that persuaded her of a better life coming. She believed in his words and started to deviate her thoughts from the shortcomings to good hopes. In this way she overcame many oddities and started to lead a carefree life even though she have to rely upon her parents. She started to switch her emotions according to the situation even though she is very bad - tempered. She relaxed herself by reading. She took interest in spiritual thoughts and feelings. She started to like and love her own self . She started to enjoy the nature. She started to think for others. She started to think about the irrelevance of money and power. She completely depended the almighty for everything. She lost faith in rules and regulations. She felt that "If I do the good and deeply believes in God, then all the rules made by humans will be overruled by my God for my sake since no men are perfect, they are not capable of ruling others."This thought was the talisman that gave her a new transformation.