why does it hurts so much (BL)

Park Akira and Jung Yeon were married over a year but it was not a love a marriage .At a point we could call it only an unrequited love marriage . It was only Akira who had feelings for him but Yeon only saw him as a caretaker or babysitter for his two years old son Jihun. Park Akira came from a Japanese family which immigrated to Korea.His mother was japanese while his father was Korean ,still his Japanese features was visible .He had fluffy blonde hair with pale pinkish skin ,plump lips and a skinny and short body. Jung Yeon is fully Korean and Akira was his classmate when he was in highschool.They did not talk much at that time but their parents were good friends with each other. Yeon was quite an athletic person since he was a student , both girls and guys was over him since that time and Akira was one of them too.He always had feeling for the other but did not show it. Yeon had a body of a leopard ,he has strong and visible muscles and glorious thighs . How will their relationship turned out? ______ This is my first bl story I've wrote on this app. I hope you show some love to it The pic in the cover is not mine:)