Why did they

I'm writing this short story so that someone can answer my question which is: Why did my parents have me if they didn't want me? My mother and my father don't want me. Why did they have me then, am I that bad that they don't want me. I know I give trouble sometimes but come on doesn't every child or teenager. I have my flaws just like everyone else. But in the end, I have my good qualities like I'm nice, kind, pretty, smart, hard-working, talented, and fun, not my words my friends and strangers' words.

As I was saying if you know you didn't want me why did you have me. Even if I happened unexpectedly you could have given me up for adoption, given me to someone who wants me. Why have a child and then tell them that you don't want them. Why do that cause to me that's messed up? I'm mentally broken. Every time I try to fix my broken mind someone reminds me that my parents don't want me or reminds me that I'm not worth it and it just comes crashing down on my mentally like a car crashing into a big old tree.

Then my mind just becomes worst and I feel more depressed and full of anxiety. I hide my real emotions from my friends and family and put a smile on my face cause I don't want them to worry about me and I don't to change their happy mood.I also know that they're a lot of children who are adopted and don't know their parents and wished they knew their parents. I hope they get to meet their parents and I hope their parents have some good reason for leaving them and giving them up for adoption.

I'm grateful for my parents and I love them of course but it hurts to wake up in the morning knowing that my parents don't want me. I don't want to know them knowing that they don't want me cause it makes me sad and it makes them sad that they had me.Did you know that they are a lot of women and men that wants, children and can't have any because of their sicknesses or beliefs. I think it would've been wise to give me up to a family who wants me. Anyways it is what it is and I can't erase or forget what they told me but I still want an answer to my question Why have a child if you didn't want them.