1 My Grade Five Events revealed

One thing in life maybe the best thing in your life that could happen to you so suddenly and couldn't make you forget that type of event. Even a superstar could experience that type of thing that could happen to him/her when they least expect it. But me all over my life I thought I couldn't experience what that one thing is all about because I am in-experienced in life and can change my daily routine which is all about doing what I could when someone needs me or when someone is in need of help. I've always thought that maybe it is such a bad idea until she came to my life which is why I changed myself from a simple life to a romantic but still simple life.

She was standing there waiting for me at the hallway of our school saying, "Makkun I... I... like you." which made me say, "I'm sorry but I'm not ready right now. Maybe someday when I am ready." and since that day I couldn't talk to her and couldn't forgive myself because that is what you may call one thing in life. It could change you but could require a big price to pay. That day I thought I was prepared but because now is not the time for that. Especially we are still in grade school and we are too young. But even though she still said, "Is that so? Then I'm sorry if I suddenly said my feelings to you. I hope I could meet you again someday and then I could wait for you wherever you are."

I answered her honestly, "I will I'm also sorry for that. I hope you understand my feelings." Then she cried very heavily and ran all through the hallways. That was five years ago when she confessed her love to me because I was rather famous in grade school because of my cuteness and facial beauty. I was rather a bit frail truly but I tried to hide it because of my reputation in school and they always think I'm strong. But during cram school I started to overcome my frail self and became strong like what my friends in grade school expected.

And now I am a first year at our towns high school which was rather huge because of course it's a high school. My name is Mari Haji and I'm 16 now. My name 'Mari' in Japan means 'truth' and it's because I always know what is true in life. I almost forgot to tell you why I rejected that girl earlier. Well it's because I am a girl after all and it's in my name that I am a girl but because I have really short hair I almost had been mistaken as a boy. And as a girl I should also distance from my childhood friends because they are all boys and in our group I am the only girl.

But to tell you the truth even I didn't tell them that I was a girl because during grade school I actually wore a boys uniform for the whole grade school life and in cram school because I don't like skirts in which could expose my underwear and I didn't want that to happen and skirts are my arch enemy. But during one spring my parents said that starting in high school I should wear a skirt and be a normal girl for once because they don't want me to be mistaken by being a boy and start being a girl just for once.

So in my first year while I was walking I sighted my friends which I thought to myself, 'Maybe they are waiting for someone. And that someone is actually me because they would want to go with me to the opening ceremony. So instead of hiding my face I shouted, "Hey guys! Long time no see" they were all fascinated and very confused because they don't know me because for so long I haven't been in touch with them for almost 4 years now.

So they asked me, "Umm... who are you? Do we know you?" 'Oh right I almost forgot that they were mistaking me for a girl. Guess I should tell them.' I said to my mind. Then I answered, "Umm... duh. Remember me. You know Makkun?" After that they started to recognize my facial expression as they say, "Makkun? Is that you? But how? We thought you were a boy back in grade school." I answered them, "Well actually you were the ones who didn't notice even one bit of what my true gender is."

"So how's my uniform? Do I look weird?" I asked them as they were blushing. Then one of them answered, "Umm... Actually it suits you. And plus you've grown your hair very well." The one who complimented was Joro kun who was smart and cool back then. He would always take care of us three when we are in trouble or when we have problems like a big brother. "Thank you. I think all of you grew taller than I expected you to be. After all you are boys." I complemented them.

After that we reunited once more as friends again. "So what happened to her Makkun? Or should I say what happened to her Mari-san?" Joro-kun asked me as I then recalled that event in my flashback as it made me remember her. So I think I should say this, "I don't know myself. But I hope that she would be okay about that." then he followed saying, "I hope so too." 'I hope that I could meet her one day so that I can tell her the truth about me.' I said in my mind as I got a little nostalgic feeling about today that maybe I can't expect.

So as the Principal talked for too long along with the student council president the four of us started to fall asleep as they were speaking. Then I suddenly felt a head which was lying in my shoulder. And while I just woke up from my sleep and couldn't believe what I saw. He is lying close to me in my shoulder and is sleeping happily while the ceremony is going on and while it is still the turn of the President. So I became embarrassed because he is indeed close to me and my heart is racing like mad.

'I hope nothing else will happen after this.' I said as I wanted to scream even though we are still at the gym sitting down in our chairs. After the long but not so long talk in the gym the opening finally come to an end and I could now wake Joro-kun. "Joro wake up now. The opening ceremony is finished now." I said as he opened his eyes and saw the two of us close to each other which made him a little embarrassed because everything's different from our childhood now because we are now teens.

The four of us came to our classroom which was filled with other first year students that was assigned in that class. Of course I didn't see the names of my childhood friends because I didn't checked for their names in the list of the students who passed so I feel sorry for them. But at the very least we are now reunited and we can become friends again like old times. But I hope that I could meet her. The girl who confessed to me during grade five and I wanted to see her.

'What was her name again? Sana-chan?' I thought in my mind as I tried to remember it and I remembered it now. Her name was Sana-chan because she was one year younger than me and the others.I think I remembered her saying, "One day I will come in this town again and we will meet again. When we are..." I can't remember what she said before she left to Tokyo which was far away from this town. I hope I could see her one day and then I could tell her the truth about my true self.