Why? Am i the problem?

I feel left out, desrted, lost and someow used. Why? Maybe because i do not have thay someone special. I have my girlfriend but... Were happy how we are. I am happy. Guass i want what she says she want a awesome plutomic (i do not know how to speel that) friendship. I want someone that is dying to hear what happens next, someone that cares for my hobbys, not as much as me but atleast to ask me how's this in thay going. I miss playing video games as an escape. Is it bad to have it as an escape? I do not care if it is bad for me, it is what i want. My pc's power supply exploded and, i kinda feel lost. I notice how little i mean to people starting noticing that my input means little to people. Its hard to even get people to listen to me and even then, they are distracted by the smallest things and then i see that they did not even care. What am i gonna do. I got some money from my dad (my parents are divorced) and said its for my matric ball table but i am taking almost 60% of it for my power supply for my pc. Am i wrong for this? I sit here in the living room waiting for my most anxiety filled person to arrive as i am responsible for opening the garage for him. I wonder if i would have turned out better if i had a better life. A life with a present and caring mom and step father who didnt hate my guts. It's like life is strange remember that game. I guass i just miss the distraction. This is just a compilation of my life in a shit show. My girlfriend is at a family function mia for the night, i do not really have friends or true ones let me say. So who else do i have? I am Ash. For what it matters.