1 WHO AM I...!?

am i a stranger or am i the son or the brother am i a monster or a peaceful human am I the smart boy or the stupid one or the angry one. happiest one or the sad one all the sayings my own family the family that never supported me and for believed in me never made me feel like one of them I was screwed out

I am 19 years old but I feel like I'm 80 I've been through a lot a lot that you can't imagine

I feel a lot of pain till I couldn't feel anything anymore I can't ... I just can't continue this suffering . horrible things I don't know who am i anymore

i woke up every day and I just hate what I see in the mirror I hate everything about me

I smoke every time I feel like putting a knife in my neck and just end it

I feel disgust. hate just flowing around in my head

sometimes I just punched the wall until my hands break just so I can feel something punish myself for something I don't know what or why sometimes I feel everything bad is because of me my mother told me once there will be no good cuz I'm alive

do you know how hard it is to hear this from your own

all I have to say it's just sad

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