7 Chapter 6: a Wish To Die and a New Role to Play

Akatsuki's POV

Ah... The bullies.

They envy my talents, my intelligence, my brilliance.

I ignore them. Say to them nothing.

So they torment me.

Like all boring people I see, they torment me. That only makes me think that they are lower than s**t and they are as stupid as kindergarteners.

Until one day, someone decided that actually pointing a knife at my mother is a great idea.

I believe at that time they are so desperate to grab my attention.

They are so desperate that they killed my mother.

My hands in blood, I laughed.

"Idiots, I don't care about my mother. She has done meaner things than you guys have!"

They say that I am a monster.

They say that I am terribly creepy.

They say that I will never find love.

Well, things were driving me crazy beforehand.

When I was a child, it's either my parents ignore me or I get hit by my parents.

My mother especially.

After all the little bento boxes and all, she went like, "Food is in the fridge."

With no love at all.

My father?

He went without me.

Nor did he ever loved me.

No one in my family truly loves me.

No one.

So I left.

Since no one cared, I left.

No one knows.

So I did some f**king payback to the bullies.

I pictured their death. Their bloody bodies and the tombstone carved out of their names.

I laughed because I was broken.

I am tired of being a great student.

Using rules to restrict me from violence.

Restrictions on my behaviour.

Restrictions on my feelings.

So I let it away.

I punched and kicked them. I think after that they say they have sustained permanent injuries that will never heal.

I smiled.

At that moment, I know there is nothing left to do.

Nothing left for me to lose, nothing left for me to gain.

So I simply let it drop.

I simply left my life drop.

All it takes is a little step out of the window.

That is all it takes to leave this miserable world.

That is all it takes to sleep.

And leave all the nightmares behind.

Give up on life isn't that scary after all.

So easily destroyed. So fragile. So delicate.

Like the one time a vase I broke.

The one time I got slapped by my mother.

And that one time when I saw her corpse.

I chuckled of the thoughts of a 13-year-old dead committing suicide.

My heart is broken.

I lean towards the outside of the window of a 4 story building.

Arms supporting me, I squat at the edge of the windowsill.

I smile for the last time.

I let go.

I lean forward.

I drop.

Cold air seeps through my clothes.

The ground is getting closer.

Closer.

Closer.

Time seems to slow down.

I close my eyes. Wait for the fall.

Wait for my death.

But I still wanna live! I still want to!

Shut up! This world is too miserable to live in. I might have a better chance of living in my next life.

The voice.

The voice who wants to live.

Young and innocent.

I regret my choice.

I still want to live.

Ah, but it's too late.

I wait for the sudden impact.

Wait for my death.

But it never came.

I open my eyes.

A woman is carrying me. She has long dark hair with a white strip, she has black eyes, a pale face, so cold and... Dark. There is another woman beside her, with golden hair and a disturbing strip of black. Her eyes are sky blue, giving the vibes of sunshine and flowers. Other than that, that is all I can see.

"You finally decided to open your eyes." The Dark girl says.

"Trivia, stop being so cold to the new recruit!"

"Shut it, Frostina."

"Ara, guys, calm down, ne?" A new guy appears in my vision.

"Don't speak too pride like a motherfudging emperor. You and your sister are so alike in this part."

"Okay, okay! Now can you please let me ask this question: Is she the new recruit in the Red Squad?"

"Yes."

"Everyone, you are all ignoring the fact that I am still here."

Everyone stares at me.

I sigh.

"Can I just go and die?"

"She is just like me!! That is great! You are now not Bai Xue Yue, my friend, you are now Shiroyuki Akatsuki, my new recruit!"

"What the actual f**k? I just want to know who you are and what is with this situation?"

Trivia sighs, "Well, you were about to kill yourself, and I was quite unsatisfied so I saved you. I admire your talents and intelligence. This is Akakage Yukine. You are going to be his subordinate in the Aka Squad."

"What is the Aka Squad?"

"The Aka Squad is... An Assassination Squad lead by Akakage here."

"Well, not surprising, considering the person standing in front of me is a psychopath."

"How do you know?"

"I just know, Akakage-san."

Silence.

"So, uh, what are you going to do?" Bai Xue Yue breaks the silence.

"Okay, what we have here is a body made by us. This will allow you to use your skills more effectively and helps you develop other skills necessary." Frostina says.

"We will transmit your conscious into your body, and from then on, you are Shiroyuki Akatsuki, a new girl. You will have to travel to Haikyuu!! Universe to help a high school named 'Karasuno' to win against Shiratorizawa. There might be some crossovers between different sports universes, so be prepared."

"Oh, fine, no problem. Can I die after-"

"No, you can't. Your new body won't let you, nor will you be able to die now."

"But that's-"

"Akatsuki. I'll help you."

"Help me with what? Living in a miserable world? What the-"

"I will help you know the side of the world that is not miserable. I will help you all the way through this journey. The stars in your eyes haven't completely disappeared, so I will help you reignite it again."

"Wha-"

"Just trust me."

"O-okay."

And that is how I came to this world. I don't want to be in this place, but there is this mysterious feeling that drags me towards this place. I want them to win. I want Karasuno to win.

And see the stars in their eyes ignite.

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Another Chapter!

Lately, a lot of things have been happening, I have just got our boxes from England and we are almost done unpacking them. We have been really busy throughout the whole week. I am sorry for the late update.

But alas, I still managed!

'til next update!

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