7 months

after sometime things found thier own rhythm and she managed to survive the first year.

simon promised if she moved in with him things would get better.

and surprisingly he was right,he made sure she ate exercised and kept upbeat.

he said they should celebrate her new job and her continued fight to make it through each day.

as she got ready it felt strange to dress up for someone other than him,who she forbid his name to enter her mind or come out of her mouth.

an hour later they were eating peacefully as she stared at the man who supported and healed her.

she felt guilty to be happy or contented with a man whom she called her friend.

"so um Amy I was thinking about you and me and I was just wondering if you would be with me,I mean be with me as my wife....I dont need an answer now and if u say no then I wont let anything change between us"

she chocked on her drink,tears glistened in her eyes and she felt an extreme crushing pain in her chest.

she whispered "but Simon you already HAVE changed things with this confession. I cant do this ...I cant do that to him .... I gotta go..... I'm moving out ...I'm sorry "she abruptly got up fumbled for her things and hot footed it out of the restaurant.