14 what he wanted to forget

so it's been 3 months of intense therapy, he hadn't seen her for all that time.

sometimes his mother in law brought Noah to see him,he's so lucky to have a wife like her always thinking of him putting his needs first.

after 2 weeks in Hospital he decided to go straight to isolated behavioral therapy.

the idea is to be isolated from everything and concentrate on fixing your problem.

so another of his daily 2 hour sessions and today was about recalling the past of which he wished he could erase.

"So take a seat Mr zahir,....today we begin a hypnosis session which I will record with your verbal permission. "

he gave consent and asked "what is this going to do?"

Mr Langford straigtened"mr zahir this pioneering treatment may very well cure your somewhat wayward behavior....its a technique used for many years with a twist that you may lose partial memories to what I call a lock box in your subconscious...but the risks outweigh the benefits..... so if you are happy with that knowing that it may be that you relapse if you take certain medications then please do begin to ease in to my voice as I will count you in"

simon zahir sat back nodding in agreement.

what felt like hours in reality was minutes he drifted to a world of memories occasionally seeing a scene some amazing some bad a voice was pestering him to move to the very ones he was trying to resist.

"ok now take me through the first major incident "

flashback

she huddled in the corner not less than 6 month ago I had raped her and she became quiet and meek.

was I at it again this time I was way out of line I hit her not once but twice.

she was trembling so much I feared she'd go into shock.

I punched the wall in frustration,she just didn't get it how much I needed her....that day was the worst,her face had a massive slap mark and her eye began to purple.

years went by me losing it every few months

until this year came and I did the very worst

I followed her from her job at the bank to see where she goes and ofcourse it was back to him ....was he better than even after all these years ?

I rushed home in a blind rage and got in sat on the sofa tapping my foot violently on the floor and as she walked in saying salam loudly and then she saw me asked "si what's wrong?what did I do "

I stood up rushing to grab her and shouted at her"how are you ever gonna move ON?if u keep thinking of him ?aren't I your husband?I will show you properly this time once and for fucking all that you are mine"

she struggled punching and kicking to no avail for today I am like a devil " please don't please please please I'm sorry I love you...dont do this" she screamed

I didn't hear anything in my obsession I needed to possess her.

I took any dignity from her I promised her that I would hurt her like she's hurting me.

I pinned her down and greedily took all of her offerings which were unoffered.

she came towards pleasure although I know she was horrified,but I knew her like a well used road map....I can make her want it

as I fulfilled my desires and torn her apart,I realised I needed help.

she became a shell of her former self she conceived that very day.

I treated her better as she was pregnant but I couldn't deal with her pineing after Graham it stung.

"3....2....1 mr zahir take a moment to remember those events,and now blow them away and then forget about them "

6 months passed like this, he nearly forgot everything and was almost ready for release.