2 Chapter 0.5 : Moving to Seoul

As planned early in the morning me, my mom and my dad left for Seoul. I was going to live in an apartment where other college students were also living. The area is quite safe and the apartment facilities are quite good. My mom and dad dropped me, helped me with arranging my stuffs and then it was the time for their leaving.

And as expected mom started to cry her eyes out.

Two/three of my neighbors even came out to see what was going on.

I was sooo embarrassed. Dad really had a hard time handling her. To be honest I couldn't help but cry a little.

Anyway then they left.

I apologized to my neighbors for the commotion and went inside to finish arranging my cloths.

*Sigh * Mom has been always. She is really over protective for me. She literally can turn the world for me and I love her. She had two miscarriages before I was born. So it was natural for her to behave bit over protective for the child she longed for. I feel sad for her, but ....

Sometimes I really hoped for a bit more freedom.

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After having dinner and deciding what I will wear for my first day, I went to bed. It was still early but I want to have a bit more energy for tomorrow.

I was lying on my bed,closing my eyes ... Suddenly my phone rang.

I was irritated- "Is this mom?"

No--

It was an unknown number ---

I halted, "Unknown number?"

*hesitant * I answered the call----

-"Hello?"

*cut* - I cut the phone as soon as I heard the voice.

I was sweating, don't know what kind of face I made, "I knew it. It's [him]."

I sent a message to that number,

"Leave me alone.. How many times do I have to tell you this? And how many more numbers do I have to block? Can't you understand? I will NEVER talk to you again"- then I blocked the number.

I was lil' sleepy but now I feel so disgusted.. Without realizing, tears were dropping from my eyes. I looked at my hand, it was shaking----

"It's okay...It's okay..Nothing will happen, it's okay" - I tried to calm myself.

But no matter what I do my past always keep chasing me,

"Why can't it just disappear?"

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I woke up by getting a call from my mom. It was 6:30 am.

Man! It's my first day at university, but she was the excited one. Dad hardly managed to snatch the phone from her to talk to me, I could tell by hearing the noises through phone.

I freshened up and packed my things.

While eating the breakfast I remembered what happened last night, I was getting upset.

"I should change my number."

But I tried to cheer up by thinking, [I promised myself I'll not let that guy take over my life again.]

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I dolled up a bit. Looking at the mirror I thought, [Is this too much?].... And I wiped my liptint and applied a lighter tone.

I felt kinda sad because of my low self confidence, "I am....It's okay.. I will become confident again" - I encouraged myself and left for my destination...

"A new life is waiting for me"

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