Valentines Day without you...

I made a response letter to Mark even though I knew he will not get hold of it immediately. By this time, he should be out there adjusting himself in his new environment. I just wanted to assure him and his family that I'm still alive and well.

Pondering through thus situation, it was actually his choice. He can just drop this career and help his brother in their company. This way, he no longer needs to struggle so much about being away from home....and from me. But then again,maybe it runs in their blood. And to put it further, maybe that's his calling too.

It will be Valentines Day next Wednesday so that's one thing I needed to take note as I wrote down my thoughts. I wanted to assure him of my love to him no matter how far apart we are. Off course. Indeed, true love conquers fear and distance.

I wrote:

My John Mark,

I hope that even you will not read this letter upon delivery, you will still feel my love penned down on it. I understand why you have to go farther away. I'm not the proper one to stop you from your dreams. Although I agree that I feel sad knowing that we are farther apart. Vut who knows what the future holds for us? I just wish you success and happiness whatever you do, wherever you go.

I'm writing this one week before valentines day, and yeah! Happy Happy Valentines Day my love! I deeply love you. It's the first time I'm celebrating such occasion. I don't know to about your side. I'm happy thinking that you have me in your heart as you are always here since day 1.

Love, I'm a bit surprised by your dream. Did you know that before I got hold of your letter, I actually had almost the same dream? I didn't know how I should interpret it as I was thinking of the baby. It disturbed me really bad . Then your letter came and I felt at ease all of a sudden.

Mark, I really don't know where else I'm headed to but to your arms. What I am doing now is just a preparation for me to stand side by side with you someday. Im not saying I need to get rich first, but atleast I know Im still young to marry. Why do I need to make money when my husband-to-be has a lot already? ha! ha!

The semester will end so soon. I might to down to B City to look for summer job again. Just feeling sad I can't seem to see you then. But don't worry, I'm not going back to that bar. I might meet another John Mark again. (he he). Anyway, this is just a plan. Hope we can still exchange letters despite this distance.

Take care of yourself my love. I love you so much and Happy Valentines once again.

Loving you,

Fem.

I mailed it the next day and had the feeling that it might be my last letter to him. I shook off the sadness that crept in my heart then proceeded to school.