1 the first time

Summer night, 2 a.m., driving down the empty road filled of lights, with a glance I notice a girl, all alone moving slowly looking for something in the nothingness of the sky, I proceed to park nearby.

Making my presence felt I head towards her very slowly with a short *sigh* saying "Isn't it just beautiful, making steps all alone feeling like you're at the center of the universe?", she agrees and starts making small talk, 15 minutes in the walk we are getting to know one another, one is a philosopher the other is a singer, one likes poems and quotes while the other likes facts and psychology, two opposites...

We have a nerdy kind of guy, glasses, shirt, watch, but all made in a way to look like he's calm.

On the other hand we have a blonde, gorgeous, formal dressed beauty from the bottom to the top with a very steady voice that sings at every word spoken.

I got caught in her aura the moment I heard her voice, with every step, every short glance, every breath I was starting to fall in the love of attraction, after all I have commitment issues and my emotions don't fall down to simple looks, but my body still rules in some ways, the hormones are something you can't just deal with, her smell was like a breath of fresh air, I remember waking up the next day and her odor was still stuck with me, only the thought made it stronger.

In the last moments I spent with her she agreed to keep in contact so we exchanged numbers and social apps usernames, I proceed to wish her a splendid night and she replies with a smile on her face "It was a pleasure to meet you"; "It was for me as well" I replied.

While walking down the road to my car I started thinking: "I might have a shot here, I might actually get to know someone enjoyable, after all these unlucky tries I might get lucky for once." I was full of hope once, full of ideas and stories to tell, after all that is what we have left in a world so cruel and dishonest.

I arrive at home, unlock the door, get inside, lock the door, undress, shower, sleep.

Falling asleep was hard, I kept thinking of her and a thousand scenarios of me doing something else, saying something else, making it better, making it smarter, but in the end I can't change the past, but I can change the future, I kept thinking of strategies like I was some kind of general or Machiavelli, but in the end we can't do anything to change what we have accomplished already, although we can change the course of future accomplishments.

In the end I fell asleep, fell down in some deep dream, I was holding someone's hand and my head placed on their shoulder, my guard was completely off, I was in the moment, I was so at peace like nothing could've made me more... happy and then I woke up.